So... I'm home. Back in Nilai, where my parents live...which means, I'm on holiday!!! Yesshhh...my lovely 3-month long sem break. Wahaha..

So what have I done for so long I was home...since last week? By right, my sem actually ended 2 weeks ago. But of course of the darned assignments I had to finish [well, not me alone but like the almost the whole class which has 90 of us], I had to stayback in Puchong for 1 week, and then I could only go back to Nilai at least a week earlier before I'm totally off from all these assignments. Well, I can actually choose to bring my assignments home if I had the space and tools to work in my parent's house. I figured out for my drawing assignment, it's wiser to finish it up in Puchong since it would be more convenient [totally] there. As for design, well, since it's my own design and I had only a model to build [well, mostly], I can do it at home. Yea, so that's it. This is my life. Work, work, work, and more work. After this, I would be working part time too, well, that's for the money-earning part :P I think I should have my job as a freelancer in hand. Think I should go back to the office tomorrow morning.

Oh boy, don't I talk a lot? Well, this is me. Do you that I fancy talking to myself? That's like one of the reasons I keep a diary. Write all my thoughts and feelings in that lil' book, which no one can read [well, except my darling now :P], besides improving my writing skills, as advised by my former English teacher :P Oh, as for the talking to myself part. I think it all started like when I start to daydream or just think about something that happened, or should've or could've or would've happened or whatever, and then I'll start to like talk as if I am in some conversation or something. I know it may sound silly, but it has been in me for some time. Hehe, it's probably some weird syndrome.. :P Bernard says it's unhealthy. Oh, he caught me moving my lips n smiling alone once. And then he went, "Are yuo talking to yourself?" And I was thinking "Oh shoot, he noticed!! That's so embarassing!!" But I said yes anyway. Hahaha...:P Whatever..

Ahh, so these few days...Monday - drove to school to submit my final assignments. Everything was fine until that darn Bangladeshi or Pakistani guy in the Printshop told me my file couldn't be opened, therefore, it couldn't be printed. I was like "Oh my gosh!! It couldn't be real man!!" And he was sooo unfriendly, it just brought down his own impression that I had on him. Man, I thought he was nice. No, he wasn't unfriendly, he was sarcastic. I needed that print so badly and ugh!!!!!!@!$#!@$@&# Stoopid. Thinking about him just boils up my blood. He wouldn't even try to open it a second time!! Sheesh..but anywayyy, surprisingly, my lecturer allowed me to submit the print the next day. Haha...

Tuesday - was driven to school to submit my print and then followed mom and my bro to Sban. Oh, picked up my bro from the airport the previous day. Waited for my mom to pack her stuffs to getting ready for her China trip, and then had her trim and dye my hair. Haha..like who said she's never gonna dye her hair? :P Wahaha...ppl change. :P I'm just trying out. Hehe...mom likes it anyway. She said it's better than my original colour :P I'm gonna dye it red. Haha.. And green...Christmas is around the corner :P

Wednesday - Sent mom to the airport, came home, slept till evening. *Oh sh*t!* Haha...can't believe that myself. Guess that's cos I slept at 3am and woke up at 4.30am just to get to the airport in time. And careless me did not return my mom's eyeliner after use :P

Thursday - Shopping!! With Jas. Hmm, would've shopped more of I had the money. Would've stayed longer if Yih Shin didn't make a surprise turn up :P Haha..nah, not so surprised. Just that I thought we could catch a movie. Didn't wanna be a 'lampost' so I ciaoed off when I should. Lesse...no money but bought a new pair of sandals [this time, heels] when the old one broke while walking in school on Tuesday. *embarassing!* Bought a new pair of shades *finally!* and a Puteri Gunung Ledang VCD. Thinking back now, shouldn't have bought it cos I've actually forgotten to buy other stuffs that were needed more :P

So, anywayy...think I should get some rest. Go to sleep and think about Heng Woon...

Oh, speaking of that, I had a weird dream last night. Well, how weird it is, I'm not sure. But it just felt weird to me. I dreamt that Heng Woon's bro, Heng Boon, has a gf. Well, not that that's weird, but his gf's from Nilai as well. And from my former sec school. Maybe's that's more like ridiculous or hilarious, I don't know bt it's just all so weird and funny to me :P

It started by Heng Boon meeting me at the KTM station in Nilai [a normal scene after coming back from KL everytime], and entering my dad's car who was picking us up. And then my dad stopped at this foodcourt and asked me to get lunch for my mom and Heng Boon followed [he was probably hungry :P]. I remembered I was picking some yong tau foo for my chee cheong fun or something and I think Heng Boon went for some curry mee. But after that, I remembered him telling me he has no bus card to go back home so the alternate way was to follow me home and then get another transport or something [this is usually what I do when I'm stranded in some no-transport-home-situation. And the bus card is actually something I use to get home after school. Without the card, you can't enter the bus.], so he was thinking of spending an hour or two in Nilai as well.

And then later, I saw him walking holding some girl's shoulder at the train station. Well, the girl's quite pretty. Short hair, fair, cute..well, which did make me feel a lil' down..for some reason... Anyway, her name's Shin Yee. She's form 4,and weirdly, Heng Boon was form 4 too. :P And I was back in form 5!! And Heng Woon's in my class!! Isn't that interesting? :P Haha... So anyway, Heng Boon borrowed a reference book from Heng Woon. Woon needs it back but Boon gave to Shin Yee and asked her to return it to Woon [why? I don't know]. And she took like dayyyyssss to return it. And she was in one of the lower classes in school. Now what does this tell you? We were all in the top classes but Boon dated a girl from one of the lower classes and which by the way isn't the kind of girl I would expect to see him dating, or his family would. Hmm..dunno bout the conclusion but the middle part sure made me laugh again. :P Tell me if ya got a comment :) [well, I think it does have something to do my lack of self confidence :P Whatever.]

Sh*t...

Greetings from hell.

Yes, I just came from hell. CS61C midterm was insane. UGHHHHH!!! So much math, dealing with floating point etc, confusing like crap. And I know I didnt do well =\ Sigh. I still have loads of work to do which I didnt do during the weekend cuz I was preparing for this midterm.

I just wish Stress would go hide in his little hole and never come out again.

Well think that's all I wanna blog, it's 10pm and I'm dead tired. 7pm-10pm midterm, so, go figure.

Nitez people. Hope you're having a better day than I am.

Am I gonna be seperated from my friends? I can't believe what I'm hearing and seeing!! Oh gosh...Diploma and Degree students are going different ways? And most of my friends [those girls I hang out with now] are ALL attached with the degree program!!! Leaving me alone in diploma....

Crap! Why did this have to happen??? Everything seemed to go on sooo well...and suddenly... ;( Oh my gosh, I can't believe this... And some April intake girls told me most of the people from her batch are taking diploma. And apparently, they aren't as nice as our batch. Well, I dunno how bad but these girls themself called them freaks...They even tipped me who to mix and who's not to; for my own good. Shoot man...I was just starting to feel good of myself and enjoying this course, myself and the company of my friends here...and yes, after so long, feeling proud of my own work...OUR work. I thought we could still be together till next sem and so on... Well, guess it's not going to happen. Sigh, at least I'm back with Paul and Miau. *Oh joy*

Am I being reasonable here? I don't even know if I'm being rational or not. Whatever. But it's just freaking me out to think about the consequences of the matter. Maybe I'll go check with the registry or something when I get back to school. I've checked the website, but it's too vague.

Since the beginning, I knew this year was to be foundation year - in design but not INTERIOR DESIGN. Ah, long story. Everything is so confusing. Darn the management. According to the timtable, most of us, if not everyone, thought we would be taking those subjects laid out throughout our course together. And for those taking diploma will stop right after they got their diploma while the degree students will go on with the course. But now, it seems like the degree program has different subjects compared to the diploma program. And according to the website, if you refer to the subjects listed, the degree students are actually studying 2 semesters of the diploma program NOW. Is that weird or what? Or issit just me who can't think things through now? Ah...what the foot...

Axonometric drawing is so darn hard....I've been sitting out there for hours and I've only done like...one room??? I've got so many more rooms to go!! Y'know...a bungalow. Dang...

I'm so idealess now, that I don't even care if that word actually exists. I'm just so tired and have no idea how to draw!! Plus, I've got other assignments to handle too. Argh, just what am I doing? Things seemed to be fine before this...yea, before this, as in last week. Gee, hope I don't get a C for drawing again. I know it sux but well...sigh...whatever. Technical drawing is just a drag..wonder who on earth created it.......cannot do this, cannot do that...must do like this, must that way...jorrrrrrrr........................

I wanna sleep!!!!!!!! I don't care anymore!!!!!!!! I need some rest although I think I've got enough rest for the past few days. Maybe my body's getting used to the rest-more-do lesser-work kind of state. I seem to lack the interest doing my asses and actually like resting more...compared to the past 2 weeks :P Ahaha....rajin for a while only :P Whatever la...I DO need some rest...and more food. I'm like darn hugnry now. Gonna get gastric soon.

Ooh, speaking of that, I've just heard 2 cases of denggue in my apartment. My drawing classmate, who had just recovered from denggue fever, and Ian Chai!! Our dear friend..I saw him in school last Thursday. He suddenly came up to me and asked if I was going home then. I replied no since I was planning to stay over at Mitra's place. It was a little peculiar of him to suddenly ask me that since apparently he looked for me in purpose, just to ask me that. He then told me he has got fever. And I didn't seem to care :P Cos I was hungry and my food was waiting for me on the table!! Ahh...how nice could I be? ... Then, Emily told me this evening that he got denggue fever too. And it has already been twice in this week those fellas came to spray some repellent or what-you-call that at our condo. Sigh, maybe I'll call him this weekend. But hope I don't get it too :P I've been spending most of my nights in Mitra's place anyway.

Hmm, by the way, wasn't someone suspected to have denggue before this? That shocked the parents, man.... :P

Anywayyy....think I'm gonna sleep. Besides, Heng Woon should be in class at this time. Came to relax my mind and to check if he left me any message. So far, nope :P I'll see ya another day then, darling. *muackz*

Nites nites nites....morning morning morning...siao siao siao.... -_-" lame lame lame....

It's the worst day of my life....or maybe not so bad yet. May not be the WORST...but it is still bad. I really disappointed and pissed..actually more disappointed than pissed - Disppointed with myself, disappointed with 2 other friends, ... just so disappointed. Sigh...what is the problem here??!?? I was only trying to show my best performance and... sigh...

Or maybe I'm not even supposed to blame anyone or anything, cos it's not like I'm faultless. But days without them were actually good, in a way. I could finish my asses on time and I'm just so proud of that, honestly. Everyone who knows me, knows I'm a little Miss Late; for anything. For the past few days, I've stayed up on my own to finish up all my asses and I've done it. And you know what is good? I received compliments for my work from my friends who have seen it. I just felt so proud okay, honestly. Won't you feel good if it were for you? You spent hours working on the computer with those darn graphics, or a whole night drawing the interior of a bungalow using those darn technical pens that smeared on you and the floor and made you so dirty, and when you went to school, most of your peers check out on your work and commented how nice it is. You feel great right?

And then one thing HAD to bring me down. I don't know how to put them in words but i just gotta say it's really disappointing. You don't get what you expect and in fact, you didn't even learn from your previous mistakes, which is not to trust or rely on those group members anymore. Gah, what was I thinking?? That they would change? That they would be different from how they were during last sem? Oh well, it appeared to me that they haven't changed a bit. They're still the same old people I used to know.

To think back, without them, my days were actually brighter; but well, with the company of a new group of friends - friends who care more about their assignments and classes, friends who are more capable of doing things, and friends who are definitely responsible. Honestly speaking, these girls were really nice. In fact, I've started to hang out with them now, and everything just seem to go on so smoothly. Sigh, why did it just have to go down to the drain...

It's 10.41am now. Worked my ass thru since yest evening till 2am+ this morning, did a little design for a tutorial I was supposed to go, slept at 4am, set my alarm at 6am. I do remember hearing my alarm going off and me waking up to turn it off. But I was just so tired that my eyes couldn't even open. Haven't been sleeping much for the past few days and those darn dark rings are just getting bigger. The next moment I opened my eyes, it was already 8.50am, exactly the time the second bus leaves. My tutorial was at 9am, and there was another bus at 9.45am. Okay, so at this point, I'm being myself. I was still in a daze, so I thought I could rest for another few minutes. But that few minutes became an hour. I ended up waking at 9.50am. ............

I can't afford to take anymore cabs coz I haven't got much money and I have some printing to be done today. I've only got a 50bux in my purse now. Definitely not going to be enough if i take the cab. So, anyway, I have to skip today's tutorial [which is advisable to attend], go to school in the afternoon, look for my tutor, print out my submission for Material's class, and then flip through the pages of my Material's notes for this afternoon's quiz. What the foot?!??!? Quiz!!!!

Like... -_-" .........................

My eyes are like swollen now...no they're not literally swollen, but I just feel as if it's swollen. Dunno why but when my friend called me up to ask if I was going to school, a few drop of tears just rolled out automatically and I was a little choked with sobs. Yea, crybaby...wuteva you say. I did try to be strong lately but this is just disappointing. Look, I didn't choose to cry okay.

Sigh, wonder if anyone who reads this will understand. Hahah...but nevermind. Just wanna voice it out. I feel better now. Ciao. Gotta get ready for the noon bus.

Playing: Sarah Mclachlan - Full of Grace

What ravages of spirit
conjured this temptuous rage
created you a monster
broken by the rules of love
and fate has lead you through it
you do what you have to do
and fate has led you through it
you do what you have to do ...

and I have the sense to recognize that
I don't know how to let you go
every moment marked
with apparitions of your soul
I'm ever swiftly moving
trying to escape this desire
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
the yearning to be near you
I do what I have to do
but I have the sense to recognize

that I don't know how
to let you go
I don't know how
to let you go

a glowing ember
burning hot
burning slow
deep within I'm shaken by the violence
of existing for only you

I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
I know I can't be with you
I do what I have to do
and I have sense to recognize but
I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go
I don't know how to let you go

I have to say, Sarah Mclachlan's songs have the BEST lyrics ever. I totally love them. Her songs are nice too, most of them mellow, soft, some are a bit dark, full of emotions and meaning. The one above comes from her song "Do what you have to do". Songs like Angel, Adia, Full of Grace, Touch, Sweet Surrender, I love you, Building a Mystery, and a few more are great songs. Her first two albums weren't my taste though, but the lyrics are wonderful, well, haven't I said it before? :P

Having a slight headache now. Just came back from playing basketball with my dorm mates and another guy from the room opposite ours. It's like the 2nd or 3rd time playing since .... 6 years? Dont even know for how long. As expected was pretty lousy and rusty, not that I'm good but I used to be better. I emphasize 'USED TO'. Anywayz, Alex (the guy from the opposite room) broke his cellphone. Never noticed till after the game, it's one of those flip phones with screen in the cover, and the top and bottom part sorta came off, probably a basketball hit on it. Well he left it on the ground, though it was well off the court.

As many of you probably noticed me not answering messages on icq or msn, its not I dont like you guys, but been pretty busy lately with assignments, 2 programming projects and midterms coming up next week. I havent even started studying for my midterms. The projects take up waaaayyyy too much of my time. Sigh. At least I'm 95% done with my projects now, so I should probably be able to study in a day or two. I guess that means I won't be answering many of the messages i get too till next week or so, unless I'm like taking a break on the computer or something.

Life at Berkeley's great, but lots of stress and work. Alot more than you expect. Well if you can cope with it then it's good :) As for me, well, I'm a slow person so yea I'm still kinda struggling. I said life's great at Berkeley, but not every day. Weather hasn't been really kind the past two days though, waking up in the morning and outside's all dark and gloomy, with huuuuge dark clouds hovering over. I got pretty worried this morning cuz it was reaaaly dark at 9am, and I had to go to class. Well, the problem is I have no umbrella or raincoat so was really worried it would rain while I was walking to class. And trust me, when you're trying to wake up for class, outside being all dark and dull and gloomy and sleep-inducing doesnt help.

Come to think of it, time passes really quick here. I dont know why, maybe it's some weird time accelerating thing the scientists at the Lawrence Berkeley Lab are working
on. Seriously though, it's already more than a month of class and it seems like 3 weeks. Friday comes before you know it. One explanation other than that time accelerating theory (which I hope no one actually believes) , is the huge workload that things get so busy and when you're busy time flies. Goodness I remember back in my college I was like saying WTF FRIDAY IS STILL 3 DAYS AWAY?

Well, I'm hungry, and the DC (dining center) is probably closed. Well it's 7pm and it closes at 7.30 but I just dont feel like eating leftovers. Guess I'll go to that chinese fast food down at Telegraph, and get some stuff to eat. Fast food here = zhap fan in msia, but a loooot nicer (and a lot more expensive too).

Hmmm, waiting for my darlin to reply me. She's probably away from her computer.

Still pondering whether to get a new video card or not. New vid card = better graphics, faster game play. But then again, I'll start playing games a lot.

Oh one last thing, Bill GAte's coming over to Berkeley some time this week. College of Engineering students and CS majors get free tickets. Arghhhh I'm an intended CS major only, not declared yet. Hope those tix arent expensive.

Ok, stomach's growling, head's paining.

Tata. *muaxx* to my ever so sweet girl. :P

Bwahaha...check this out! :P Hehe...courtesy of Josiah Koit, whom by the way is much more evil than me :P Hehe...

I am 9% evil.

You are an Angel. You rarely sin which makes your life pretty boring. But if there is a God He will likely reward you in the afterlife.

Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com

• Heng Woon's busy, that's why his last blog was dated Sept the 1st. And I suppose he didn't even bother to read the latest updates of his 'shared' blog :P
• I don't think anyone would actually read these posts of mine since the main person didn't even blog and besides, it wasn't my blog in the first place.
• Sometimes, I wish Jasmine would read this page and know what is going through my mind; for things that I have no idea how to relate it to her in words or actions as we don't see each other that much anymore. And not forgetting how grateful I would be if she ever leaves a comment after my posts so I would know what is going through her mind too. I somehow think it all started ever since I got together with Woon. Not anyone's fault but mine.
• I feel as if I'm starting to lose all my friends; or maybe I already have. Ever since Paul and Miau shifted out, my place has been so quite, and I'm often alone. Ian has his own gang now, and even Mr Law don't come down here to chat anymore, like how he used to do. Paul and Miau have their own gang in school too. Everything is so different now. I don't even know what else to say.
• I had a weird dream of Jasmine being a different person and treated me differently too. The thing is, it didn't feel weird at all in the dream. She dressed differently, talked differently, hangs out with different people, and didn't even bother about my existence. When I woke up, I first felt it was a funny dream as that has never happened before. But when I gave it a second thought, I realised that was actually what was in my mind a long time ago; when she started college, hangs out with a bunch of girls who calls themselves 'The Doons', started to club, drink liquor...maybe all these are part of what the norms would do at this age. But somehow, I feel as if we're like 2 different people already - well, sorta. I kinda felt like a stranger the last time I hung out with her and some other ex-schoolmates which I've never seen for ages - laughing and talking about stuffs which I don't understand.
• All I want is some moments when I don't have to be alone. All I want is some attention. All I want is some companyl. Is that too much to ask?
• It's the mid-term break. Every faculty gets a week break. I should've went home earlier. My roomate left right after her class, and Emily left after dinner. All of my neighbours went back to their hometowns too. So who else is left here? Me, myself and I. And that was also because I wasn't feeling well since yesterday; if someone would've noticed.
• It's 11pm here, so it should be 8am over in the US. It's Friday morning, if I remember correctly, Woon should've class until 2pm the latest. He has yet to reply my MSN message which I have sent a few hours ago and he's now offline. He's probably got disconnected or something. It's just so difficult to talk to him nowadays, since he has gotten so busy compared to the time he was in Cupertino. Everytime I get a chance to be online, it would either be his early morning or his late night, when he would either be sleeping, or busy studying.
• Yea, mid-term break; a break for classes but not assignments. Technically, I have about 4 major projects to be done, and some of the projects have like 2 seperate tasks. So overall, there are about 7 tasks to be done in one week, cos they are all due after the break. So far, I've just finished a project of the most important subject in ID, which was a group project by the way, and it's always meant to be the toughest one. All of us 'suffered' throughout the whole process cos it wasn't only this project that was killing us, but also assignments of other subjects. Somehow, they were all due around the same time. Everyone had sleepless nights [which is not surprising]. In addition, I hadn't really eaten for the past week, cos I have to cook myself. My pants are getting so loose now and the last time I weighed myself right after dinner, I was only 52kgs, when based on my height, I'm supposed to be much heavier than that. I guess that's how I got weak and wasn't feeling alright earlier. Thankfully, I could still stand until the end of the last presentation of the week.
• I am easily distracted, easily confused, selfish, sensitive in unnecessary things, and I think whatever that has happened, happened because of me. If I were to blame others, it might just be unfair. However, this 2nd sem of mine, will act as a reminder to me as the consequence of what I have done in the past before. Having most of the pieces of your world to fall apart shortly one after another, is certainly not a very pleasant thing to have in your life; especially when you thought you already have them and you won't loose them. I guess thing cannot always be taken for granted.

Had supper earlier with my 23 year old neighbour cum school mate. One of the things we talked about was his experience studying and living in Australia before coming back to finish up his degree. According to him, it is advisable to actually further your studies abroad for a good exposure, and probably a 'perception changer'. He said he has learned how to see things in a different manner, and somehow his experience have made him to become a more confident person. By the time you're back here, you'll start comparing things and complain lots.

At that point, I recalled the times Heng Woon complained and compared things here and in the US. I never liked it when he did that everytime. To me, it was as if an act of a racist. Somehow, I just never got his point. Why does he have to compare things that are of its own quality and all? I mean of course the Americans have the technology that are way better than what we have. We are still catching up, aren't we? Not like we're not doing anything at all; maybe just a little slow. But sometimes, I still think it would be appropriate to appreciate what our country or rather what we have, and stop comparing ourselves so much to a society which is far more advanced. Although I admit I dislike the system [whatever 'system' the government is providing] and some other stuff (which I can't recall at this moment) here,I still think apart from that, there are things that are worth appreciating.

I never really did understood why he has to open his mouth to criticise everytime I praise a local product. Or at other times, his criticism somehow made me feel shallow...until what I have been told today. Not that I'm not proud of my own country anymore but I'm just thinking that reason may be true. Perhaps, if one day I should live abroad, my perception will change too. But well, that's just perhaps...perhaps I get to finish my last semester in Curtin, Australia, or maybe my degree. Perhaps, just perhaps.

Perhaps, I might even get a computer by the end of this weekend and start onlining like how I used to again. Assignments and researches will be so much easier from then on. Sigh, look..it's 4am in the morning and I'm waiting for Heng Woon to come back online just because it's hard for me to get online and I'm using my neighbour's computer now. [he's gone clubbing...dat's y ;) ]

Ah, finally, Woon is back. And so are the whole bunch of guys who went clubbing. One of them seems drunk...shHhhh..... :P

Arghhh, I just noticed I need to change the left menu bar. Kinda outdated :P I kinda wanted to put up the Gallery last Saturday, but never had the time/mood to get to it. Hopefully this weekend.

Planet Shakers - Burn

Well it's been more than a month since I've blogged. It's partly cuz I've been busy lately, and when I'm not busy I wasn't in the mood to blog, or I was too tired. Excuses you might say, but yea, I don't blog unless I REALLY feel like it.

For those of you who are still 'ketinggalan', I'm back in Cauliflowernia (as the Governator pronounces it), and moved in to my dorm in UC Berkeley. One thing I can say is, that I LOOOOOVE my dorm, and I LOOOOOOOOOOVEEEE the UCB campus even more! Of course, I love my darling Julia the most and I miss her everyday =( Kinda hard to have spent one and a half months together with someone you love and then having to part again for another few months.

Well my dorm's called Bowles Hall. It's an all-male dorm, up on a hill, and definitely a sight for Harry Potter enthusiasts. Also known as the 'castle', from the outside it looks like, well, a castle. Or as some people say, Hogwarts. Bowles is also the first residence hall to be built in UCB, around the 1880s I think. Next to Bowles is a hockey field, and the football stadium. The hockey field's visible from my room window (free views of games) but the stadium walls' pretty high and, unfortunately, no free 'tix' to football games :P Another reason I love my dorm is the view. Yea, situated on a hill, and you can see downtown San Francisco in the distance. The Bay bridge is visible too (provided there's no fog) though the Golden Gate Bridge's blocked off. My dorm, seriously, rocks :P

Classes began Monday, and so far, it's pretty okay I can say. Well, it's only the first week. Though from my Geo class and my CS classes I can tell that the next few weeks, and months, will be hell. Welcome to UC Berkeley =\ I'm taking Econ 1(Intro to Economics), CS61A (Structure and Interpretation of Computer Programs), CS61C (Machine Structures), GEO 10 (World Regional Geography). What sucks is that I'm still on the waiting list for my Geography class. I really do hope I get into the class because I already bought 2 readers for that class, that cost total 90 bucks. I still have yet to get the Geography textbook, which will cost another 100 bucks. If you're thinking books are expensive here, well, maybe expensive's an understatement. I've spent about 350$ on books(excluding Geo and Econs textbook, both which I havent bought yet). If I do get into Geo 10, I'll very very likely drop my Econs class, since I don't really need to take that class.

As far as my social life goes, I've made quite a lot of friends. My dorm unit-mates have been pretty good. Currently I'm in the Christians on Campus group, and also the ABSK (Asian Baptist Student Koinonia). Then this Saturday there'll be a SMSA (Singaporean Malaysian Student Association) welcome dinner/social event which I'll probably attend. There's also a UCB Rotaract, which I wanna join, but have yet to gathered info on. Well, hopefully as the semester progresses I'll have time for all these extra-curricular activities. Speaking of which, tomorow the Christians on Campus's having a welcome night dinner/social at 7pm, and the ABSK's having one tomorow too at 7.30pm. Grrrrrrrr why have both of them be on the same day??? I'll probably go for the ABSK one though, but I might decide otherwise 5 minutes before 7pm :P

As for other things, well, there's not much off the top of my head that I wanna blog about, other than I miss my angel. =( And everytime I'm online she's not, and when I'm sleeping or in classes, she'll message me and I wont be able to reply and when I get back online I feel bad cuz I didn't reply and wasn't there when she wanted to talk =\ Time zone differences suck. *Sigh* It's not like there's anything much I can do about it, and well she doesn't have her own PC yet so it's kinda hard for her to get online too. So many times and moments during the past 1.5 months when I was back, both good and bad, that I reflect and remember everyday, and I realize how I miss having her physically close by my side, going through ups and downs together. I love you baby. =x

Arghhhhhh I can feel my sanity drifting apart. And I'd better go read up on tomorow's CS61C Lab.

Until I get the mood to blog again, I bid adieu.

Oh man.....one day, there'll probably be fungus growing on me. Can you believ it? I was actually alone in my small apartment half of the day?? My roomate went out with her friends, Emily went to KL to do her site analysis, which by the way, I have done mine with my group members, I was supposed to go out with my friends but since he NEVER replied my SMS or called me, I stayed at home thinking I could at least finish up my journal on my site analysis project. But then again, I didn't have that darn book (which I intended to buy in the morning but my friend overslept and didn't come to pick me up) to start writing my report, so I practically had nothing much to do but to watch TV, which by the way again, there weren't many programmes today. Most of my neighbours went back to their hometown so my area is like totally....QUIET. Now I finally understand why Paul and Miau had to go out when there isn't any assignment to do. Cos they ahve got no access to the Net (when I had before I lost my computer) and there really isn't much to do here in Puchong. Shops are far away.

I'm now in Sutra Mas, where Paul and Miau stays. Hanging out in this nice CC; noisy and loud but well, better than my house. Went to shop at Tesco earlier cos I've finished my food and honestly, I needed to get out of that place. And since Tesco was near Sutra Mas, I had my friend to send me there since he was going there too.Whoa, was so happy and relaxed to actually meet my friends...I mean really. Most of my close friends moved here and left me alone in Millenium...although there's no broadband or Internet access in their house yet, still, there's someone to talk to and joke with..hmm, considering to stay over here tonight...ooh, my assignment!! Ahh, Paul's gonna send me home soon so I'll just have to grab everything and come over. Yay!!!!

Ok, then tomorrow go to KL Wesley. Done. ;) :)

I think there's a tag saying "I am LONELY" hanging around my neck. Sigh...do I have to cry myself to sleep everynight?

I'm stresseD!!!

What a day...ass to be done!!! Arrghhh!!! Hungry. Stomach discomfort. Ass due tomorrow... PRESENTATION!!! Tired. Forgetful. Lonely. Messy. "-_-

So my baby went back to US this morning. Well, thought it would be hard to let him go since there have been so much that we have been through and the possibilty of seeing him in a
year's time from now. But well, there is a possibilty of him coming back home in December too. Actually, to think about it, it's not all that hard. Maybe it was just me. Or maybe it was just me who was very tired, sleepy and exhausted this morning. Didn't have enough sleep for the 2 previous nights. But what I do know, that I wasn't feeling good after he left; or rather, after my class in the evening. Was tired and I only had about 2 hours of nap, apart from the fact that I was feeling a bit lonely coz (i) most of my previous noisy housemates moved out (ii) there wasn't anyone left for me to call anytime anymore.

Well, anyway, my baby has been really sweet to me. I did feel happier after he came back. In fact, I could feel his love and care for me despite there were times when I kinda doubted, complained and got sensitive over some minor issues which cost me some unneccesary tears. Dunno, but it seem to be like this...for now.

Like during the last few days, there were some things that I wouldn't wanna forget. I went over to the mamak opposite Mid Valley to have breakfast with my baby on Monday morning, which was only yesterday, by the way. Left Puchong at 6.45am, took the 7am bus which was cramped by high school students and people going to work, and reached MV at 8am. Breakfast wasn't anything special except for my baby who came out directly from bed, with unbrushed teeth (one of the people who brushes their teeth after breakfast) and 'pajamas'. Since my class was at 2pm, I hung out at his house for a while, picked out photos that are to be developed, did a few sketches for my assignment, while my baby acted like a clown behind me. Hehe...well, he managed to make me laugh really hard as he was being childish, clownish and all...just because he was bored :P Yea..thinking of that now is still making me laugh :P

And while leaving, he actually 'subsidised' for my travelling expenses just because my family and I are kind of financially burdened in a way. I was actually touched by that. Felt that he really cared :P Well, not that I've never felt before la but just that, it's a nice feeling all over again. And then there are other minor stuffs too, like, how he went and search for a pail just cos I didn't want to take cold shower in the night; how hard he tried to make me feel better when I was down (and btw, was stubborn to look at the bright side which he was trying to show me :P), the thought of him helping me lightening my financial burdens; found a way to loan me his family's old CPU when I've lost mine; and of cos, the thing that he gave me the night before he left, just to let me know that I was the one he's chasing for, and the one for him.

Sigh...think I have to go now. Using friend's computer. Hmm...gotta finish up my assignment too. Hahah...look at the way i spend my time...and then complain about not having enough sleep the next day :P

Goodnight anyway ;)

I'm now blogging from my college's multimedia lab in the library, which I have never been for the past 4 months or so. It's always packed here since it's shared and no class is ever held here, compared to other multimedia labs which are meant to be classes. There are only about 52 iMacs here, 3 on each table. There are 14 tables here altogether. Well, one thing is, not all the computers are working. Like some computers, either the mouse isn't working, or there's a problem opening Internet Explorer. iMacs just su** sometimes. Or maybe it's just me, who doesn't know how to use :p But well, I'm not the only one who is complaining. Not all the students here needs to use iMac anyway.

Sigh, Friday class. What a drag. WHY WASN'T I PUT IN MONDAY CLASS??????? Now I have to come back for class every Friday morning while my other friends who attends the same subject but on Monday, sleeps at home. Aww maaann, what luck. And most of my close friends are in the Monday class!!! WHY???????? Iyerrr....cannot change also. Go to school alone, go back home alone :( And now I'm onlining alone as well. Why? Coz I'm waiting for the bus to take me home....Class ended at 11am and the darn bus is at noon!!! Haiseh...summore my girlfriend absent laa. SIGH........hope the rest of the Fridays are not as bad as this.

Darn sleepy now. Dunno why, when I slept soundly during the night. Woke up at 4am+, then went to check Woon out in his room. He's still not in a good condition. Still having fever and all. Still got stomach upset. So one good news is, that he's not going home today :) Well, not because he doesn't want to, but because he's having a fever :( and they probably won't let him in. Besides, I think he's too weak to go home by himself. He was fine when I got there yesterday evening. Not to say very fine but was much better compared to the previous day. Could laugh and joke with me summore. Then after dinner, I mean MY dinner, coz he didn't eat anything but fruits, he was feeling weak again. And his face was turning red. The fever was back. Well, he do have some rashes on his hand....those small tiny mosquito bite-like spots; thus, the doctor suspects denggue. Well, logical too but hopefully not. Pray that it's not. Then when I checked on him in the morning, he wasn't that warm anymore, and was sleeping like a baby. He didn't even realise I was with him the first time. ;p

Haha, and then later in the morning, when everyone was awake, I went to check on him again, and asked if he wanted some water coz his lips were dry, he shooked his head. Then his mom came in and said, "See lah, got water don't wanna drink. Don't want to listen lah...Must drink a lot of water!!" He then sat up to get a sip. Hehe...

Ah, time passes so soon when you're having fun. ;p 5more mins to go before the bus arrives. Hope I don't miss the bus, otherwise have to wait untill 2.30pm. Eee....got a few things to do when I get home.

- Take a shower...WASH my hair!!!
- Pack my bags, ready to go HOME!!!
- Withdraw $$, pay up Internet bills.
- Visit Heng Woon again before going home.

Hokey dokey....time's up! Time to go back to my apartment. Cheerio! :) Get well soon baby.

Oh great, I was blogging like ...for half an hour....and then I was checking out the keyboard of this darn Mac, and I accidentally press the Esc button...and voila! Everything I've typed disappeared. ....... "-_- what the foot man....

And I was talking about iMacs. Was saying how much I hate it, yet I like the design and colours. Argh!!!! Eeeee.......so geram laaaaaa.....stoopid Mac...keyboard darn small!!! sure cannot fit fat fingers....like someone :p hehehhe....nah.....jk :p

Blogging from the multimedia lab now....before the multimedia class comes in about 2pm :P It's now 1.35pm. Wanted to blog as much as I could before the class but then, sigh, guess I can't do much now. Oh, anyway, I can hear my friend playing some game here behind me....some game with the drings and the blings and the blupps and the blipps. Hehe, nothing much to do now...it's still the first week. Our first assignment was handed out today. Oh, and I missed the class. LOL I missed an important class.... lol more. "-_-

Well, will blog more about it later...will blog more about other stuffs too. My baby's not feeling well. Gonna go over and see him after my class in the afternoon. It's the first class for Materials 152, so it'll only be an intro class. Shouldn't take long. Hmm, thought I could at first go over and sleep too but now, looks like the bed's taken :p

Sigh.........tomorrow's FRIDAY!!!!! You know what it means...? :( My baby's going back tomorrow.... ;( Boo hoo hooo..... But, well, yea I guess we did spend a lot of time together since he came back. Don't know, sometimes I just don't feel I've had enough. Maybe he'd had enough, but not me. Maybe it's the distance...the loneliness and emptiness I feel when he's not around.....well, I guess if it was me who's leaving, maybe things would be different. Maybe I will feel different. Dunno. Talk bout it later. Class now.

Dan Hill - Sometimes When We Touch

You asked me if I love you
And I choked on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Just realised that whenever I blog from home, I'd never get to listen to the song playing in the background. I could only get online via my Dad's very old computer, which has no speakers or woofer. Oh by the way, his computer is already connected to the Internet line. I've tried connecting my own computer to the same network too, by plugging in the wireless telephone which has a built-in modem, to my computer. But then, I couldn't figure out the way to configure it, so I gave up. Not a computer person anyway. But I wasn't the only one...my baby couldn't do it too :P hehe...but well, he tried without the manual book... :P

Anyway, sigh, I always get carried away from the main topic. Was going to talk about the song being played here... Well, this is our 'theme song' for my baby and I...according to him, it was the first song that I introduced to him. It wasn't during the time when we got together, but the time when we were chatting a lot online. Yea, the time when we first knew each other...

Or maybe, ONE of our theme songs :P Before he told me that he made this our theme song, I've always thought DJ Sammy & Yanou's Heaven was the one, since we first talked about dancing to that song and how it actually clicked with what we were feeling then and all... haha...

Heaven - DJ Sammy ft Yanou & Do

Oh - thinkin' about all our younger years
There was only you and me
We were young and wild and free

Now nothin' can take you away from me
We've been down that road before
But that's over now
You keep me comin' back for more
Baby you're all that I want
When you're lyin' here in my arms
I'm findin' it hard to believe
We're in heaven

And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

Oh - once in your life you find someone
Who will turn your world around
Bring you up when you're feelin' down

Yea - nothin' could change what you mean to me
Oh there's lots that I could say
But just hold me now
Cause our love will light the way

Chorus
I've been waitin' for so long
For somethin' to arrive
For love to come along

Now our dreams are comin' true
Through the good times and the bad
Yea - I'll be standin' there by you

Anyway, I'm blogging from the office now. Hmm, wonder how come I didn't go out today...ohh yea, some stupid fools broke into our house. So it's not really a good time for me to actually go out and have fun. Had some things to be done here anyway, so thought I should come over and see what to be done, before I start my classes on Monday. Ah, classes. Thanks to the enrolment of my classes, the thieves came when no one was at home. And thanks to my college for being situated all the way in Cyberjaya instead of PJ. Argh...

Oh, ah, i got carried away again. Was going to say, I'll have to continue this post when I get home. Blogging while work is not easy :P Haha...be right back :P

Hmm, so someone had a 'really' busy weekend apparently...Yea, so do I :P Friday Saturday and Sunday. Concert was great. The turn out wasn't big but good enough. Need more prayers in support. Well, other than the PA, it wasn't too bad. In fact, after the concert, I wanted to perform more. Dunno about my team mates but for me, I wanted. But not on that day itself. Lost half of my voice during the praise session, and during somewhere, my voice actually broke :P Like out of tune ??? :P LOL But my mic was soft, so couldn't be heard. Haha, good thing ;) Sigh, I was actually losing my voice the night before during our last practice cos the mics were much louder. Plus I was standing on a strategic spot where I was surrounded by the amps, 2 keyboards, drums, and bass guitar [almost every single instrument we used, except the electric & acoustic guitars]. So, well, on the day of the concert, it just got worst :P Ahh, whatever.

Then on Sunday, we went to Holiday Villa for the concert which is inclusive of hi-tea, and yea, te vocal group was good. But well, their genre of music is a lil different. Ours is contemporary rock, whereas theirs is like sentimental / soft rock. Yea, we are largely influnced by Hillsongs' youth, like Planet Shakers and United Live, so the songs we played are mostly taken from their albums. For now, we only had one worship song which was written by ourselves.

And prior to the concert, I had a song stuck in my head. Our first praise song 'One Way', and now after the S'pore vocal group concert, the song 'Faith of the Heart' is stuck in my head. It's actually nice tho, editting a few words and harmonising it. The song itself is quite meaningful also.

It's been a long road, getting from there to here.
It's been a long time, but my time is finally near.
And I can feel the change in the wind right now.
Nothing's in my way.
And they're not gonna hold me down no more,
No they're not gonna hold me down.

Cause I've got faith of the heart.
I'm going where my LORD will take me.
I've got faith to believe. I can do anything.
I've got strength of the soul. And no one's gonna bend or break me.
I can reach any star. I've got faith, I've got faith, faith of the heart.

It's been a long night. Trying to find my way.
Been through the darkness. Now I finally have my day.
And I will see my dream come alive at last. I will touch the sky.
And they're not gonna hold me down no more, no they're not gonna change my mind.

Cause I've got faith of the heart.
I'm going where my LORD will take me.
I've got faith to believe. I can do anything.
I've got strength of the soul. And no one's gonna bend or break me.
I can reach any star. I've got faith, faith of the heart.

I've known the wind so cold, and seen the darkest days.
But now the winds I feel, are only winds of change.
I've been through the fire and I've been through the rain.
But I'll be fine.


Cause I've got faith of the heart.
I'm going where my LORD will take me.
I've got faith to believe. I can do anything.
I've got strength of the soul. And no one's gonna bend or break me.
I can reach any star. I've got faith.


I've got faith of the heart.
I'm going where my LORD will take me.
I've got strength of the soul. And no one's gonna bend or break me.
I can reach any star. I've got faith, I've got faith, faith of the heart.

It's been a long road.


Ergh, lazy now. Hmm, gotta prepare or tomorrow's date ;) Well, will blog again sometime soon ;P Heheh...nites.

Eeeeekkkk!!!! Stupid mosquitoes. Windows were left open for the whole day till evening 8-ish so yea you would expect mosquitoes would come flying in. 3 bites on my left arm!! Sheeesh bloodsuckers.

I had a really busy weekend. Went to 2 concerts - Julz's church youth concert on saturday and another concert by the Singaporean christian vocal group 'Crosswinds'. My darling's concert was pretty good, better than I expected, and also considering it's their first time. Only bad thing was the sound was a lil muffled, or they didn't sing clear or loud enough. PA system isn't that good too so yea can't expect much. But I didn't regret going though. Saw my darling as a backup singer singing, and also acting as a demon in a drama. Pretty fun :)

After the concert we went to Jia Yee's birthday party. Jia Yee's a friend of Julz by the way. Was sort of a late celebration cuz her birthday was on Tuesday actually. Her house was reaaaaalyyy nice. A 3-storey house in Puchong. Looks new too I guess they just moved in there or something. Anyway the food was okay, had lamb, curry chicken, rice, noodles, satay (yum!!), some finger food, and kuih melayu and fruits as desserts. Can't remember if there were fruits, but, whatever :P oOoOhhhh!! Had ice kacang too! Wanted to get a bowl of ice kacang but then worship session was starting so we got hushed into the house. Came back out and the caterers were packing everything. *frown* Took a bus back from Puchong later, and my darling slept over, on my comfortable bed while I had to sleep on a thin matress in the study room. hmmph! ;)

Reminder to self: Have some ice kacang before leaving for the US.

Woke up really tired today at bout 9.45am. My darling was still sleeping in my room, so I had to wake her up, though she only did like after 15 minutes of me trying to wake her up. Lazy pig!! :P *runs* So yea we arrived late to church, bout 15 mintues late and the worship was already ending. Didn't really listen to the sermon cuz I was trying the whole time to get my eyes to stay open, though it didn;t work most of the time.

Crosswinds' concert was after church, at the Holiday Villa Subang Jaya. It was a Hi-Tea concert, plus a message from a pastor from Singapore. Food was good. Not excellent but good. And they had bread pudddingg!!!!! bread puddinggg!!! my fav!! mmm thinking of it now just makes me wanna... EAT. Yea, greedy pig here. The concert started about an hour after the hi-tea started, and wow, they were good. I heard they are a really sought after vocal group in Singapore, though I've never heard of them till now. Seriously, if you like Christian songs/vocal groups you would probably like theirs/them.

Well, think that's all I'll write up for today. 11.47pm, and these mosquitoes feeding on me aren't helping. Just a thought, can anyone die from lack of blood due to extreme amounts of mosquito bites? Heh, never thought of that, but I sure wouldn't wanna be the first victim.

Goodnight people!
*huggles*

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Your touch is...	heart warming
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What the foot man...got a call from the warden of my college apartment, asking me who turned off the darn fridge and made the whole house stink like mad. I said not me, not the housemate who last left. It's probably the cleaner. Then he told me the cleaner didn't go up to that apartment. He and his colleague had to clean the fridge which apparently made him puke. His boss saw them cleaning and so he told the warden to deduct our deposits as penalties. Well, if it WAS one of us who turned it off, then I wouldn't complain about the enalties. But the thing here is, my housemates and I are not the only ones who has the keys. the warden has the keys, the person-in-charge from the Students' Services Dept. has the keys, even the cleaner has the keys. So who's to blame now? They said it's not their party, neither it's ours....dang...

Well, other than that, the windows of my room and my housemate's weren't closed. The beds that were next to the windows were all soaked after the rain. The room was apparently 'flooded' and the warden had to clean it again :P And sun the mattresses. If the mattresses get spoilt or something, it'll be penalties again. I mean or things like this I dun mind paying for la, since it's my own responsibility. But as for the fridge..ugh!! No about the money..but about..ugh....I oso dunno la. Forget it. All I want is to get away from this bond.

..........*inhales*..........*exhales*.........

So what has been up today? Woke up at 9am and rushed to Sentral to meet Woon cos I was having his visa photos which he needed them for his visa application this morning. And with the fact that I slept at 5.30am in the morning, I was still energetic enough to get myself to Sentral by standing in the train for almost an hour, buy myself a hash brown and a cup of hot tea at McD's, and then watch Woon sleep in the car. ...

While waiting for him to finish up filling in the forms, I went over to Help College to print some stuff with the help of my friend. Walked over there when I thought it was near. Even his dad told me was near. And then my friend told me it's right behind the building I was in. So I went. Got a little lost within those skyscrapers around me at first, but thankfully, with the help of a kind student passing by, he showed me the way out. And yea, found my friend waiting there for me. Then la he brought me to this computer lab which ccording to him is new and it was just opened last week. He had to write down his name and time in in a book and had to tell the guy there the purpose I was with him [to show him what to print]. After that, we went downstairs to some document collection centre to collect our printing, and charged me 40sen for 4 pages. Not complaining about the $ but the way they put all these up. Get into a comp lab have to write name, then go downstairs to collect your document, then if they're printing their stuffs, you'll have to wait, and that was what happened to me. Man, why can't they all put it in ONE place? And the whole campus is like a maze. Different departments in different building which situated in different nearby spots of Damansara. Gosh, I'm starting to appreciate my own college :p ONE campus ;)

Then la the picking up part. Asked me to go McD's and I couldn't find McD's. Realised that McD's is at the main building which I had to take a feeder bus there. Hehe...made his parents turn back to the John Hancock building cos I could only find my way there. :P

Sigh, so much for today. Oh, then we went to Cyberjaya...my college this time :P Hehe..the black building. :P Woon saw Tan Sri Lim Kok Wing and said he looked like some old woman, with the hairstyle and all :P Hehe...I totally have no comment on him :P But yea, he has a very bad hairstyle. Artists should look better than those ok. ...

Yea, so those were the things that happened today. Got more actually but well, I'll just leave that for one of the books or perhaps my baby might want to blog about it :P Dunno. I've been sitting here since like.....10.30pm? Came to blog something ended up chatting and finishing the blog only now, 12.50am. Came home at 10pm and haven't even showered yet!!! Eeee...sticky and dirtyy....

Listening to :- Sarah McLachlan - Fallen

It's Monday 1.47am and I can't sleep. Pretty surprised I can't sleep considering I had a really tiring day, and weekend. Stayed over at my darling's place over the weekend. Went over on Saturday afternoon, and knowing the pig I am I slept on the couch in her living room while she went off to her church for her concert practice. Nah, I wasn't being a pig. I was really tired as well. Didn't sleep that well the previous night, was kinda using the comp playing games till early morning 3am. Anyway, arrived at the Nilai KTM station, and had to wait for 45 minutes before Julz and her neighbor (cuz her parents were kinda busy) came to pick me up. Well well well looks like I wasn't the only pig, someone was sleeping when she was supposed to come pick me up :) Anyway I didn't really mind waiting, I went looking for this mamak place to get a drink or eat something but then couldn't find it. She said that for being late she'd "make it up to me", and though it wasn't necessary but I found it really sweet that she said that. Well, thats my darling :)

So yea when we got back to her house I laid back on the sofa and rested my eyes. She then came over to me and gave me a few kisses, a few I think, lol. Felt like I was dreaming right then. :P Then I went to the longer couch and slept there. My darling was so nice to turn on the fan so I wouldn't feel hot. Then a few more kisses and I completely dozed off.

Woke up at about 5.30pm I think, and could hear mom-in-law cooking or something in the kitchen. Slept for 3 hours +. Slept well too. Remembered that my darling woke me up before she left for concert practice and let me know she was leaving. Remember getting a kiss and her saying "rest well" before I completely went back to sleep. Am I really being a pig? :P If so I'm a really pampered one.

Had dinner outside at a chinese restaurant with her and (dad&mom)-in-law after picking her up from church. Food was pretty good, better than that Vietnamese restaurant we had the last time. As usual, I had 2 bowls of rice. Would've had more since I didn't eat lunch, and since everytime I go dine at a chinese restaurants I always eat a few bowls of rice. But then after my 2nd bowl there wasn't any of 'choi' left, so I passed on that 3rd bowl of rice :P

Went back to church after dinner, to help out with some banner thingy. The youths were creating some banner using spray paint, with the words "Dare to defy da' NORM" sprayed graffiti-style in black on a cloth with a yellow-sprayed background. Came out pretty decent. I didn't really help in the spraying, I actually looked on most of the time. The youth people were quite fun, the guys were pretty wacko and all, playing with the spray cans and then posing and taking pictures like they were doing a photoshoot for an album cover. I was outside with them and my darling was inside the building helping out on some drawing for the Sunday School. Had a great time, and got to know the peeps there better. Went back to my darling's house at about 1am, and I could almost hardly walk. Was quiiiite tired and so after taking a shower I went to sleep.

And I thought that was tiring. Woke up 10.30am the next day, only after being woken a few times by my sweetie. Haha ok I AM a pig! Realized church service started at 10am and by the time we all got to church it was 11am. 1 hour late. The place was packed already. I'm still not that used to the church service here. It's so different compared to the ones I usually attend. Speaking in tongues, long worship times and well, the entire service's different. Service ended at about 5pm. 7 hours of service. WOW! I am so gonna need to get used to it. I like the service, just that it needs getting used to. Oh the church's name is "Semarak Revival Center" for the curious ones.

Good thing they had refreshments and provided ...erm... lunch? Well lunch or tea (it was 5pm) but the last thing I ate before that was pancakes and kaya in the morning. Then the girls of the youth were having some ice-cream and coke float sales to raise funds for their concert. To be honest ice cream with Coke tastes a bit weird, not as nice as Root Beer with ice cream. I had my darling get me a float with half-scoop strawberry and half-scoop vanilla. I think I was the only one so 'picky' to choose half-scoops of this and that.

Anyway, while waiting for my darling and her friends to finish selling the floats I listened to some voice recordings on my phone that she left me. There were 3 recordings. First one was really sweet. Hehe. She sounded soooooo cute and so.... kiddy... lol... I loved it. Maybe I'll find a way to post it up here if I can. :P 2nd and 3rd recordings, well, I'm not gonna elaborate on those two, I'm just gonna say that I didn't realize I snored so loud while sleeping........ PAHAHAHAHAHAHHA! Hey, my darling's not all sweet, she can be evil sometimes. :P

Went home after her parents came to pick us up from church. Julz wanted me to stay longer, and wanted me to go home after dinner. I was kinda tired and wanted to go home then. So I went home. Kinda felt bad after that, felt like I should've stayed longer with her. But I didn't wanna go home too late, cuz I've been going home late a number of times already, and I was tired. The worship kinda knocked me out. Slept on the KTM back to Sentral, and yet again, I nearly missed my station. *shrugs*

Well was kinda thinking a bit just now while lying on the bed after taking my shower. Recently there's been quite a lil tension between us, though most of them just end up being a misunderstanding. I guess one problem with me is that I forget things easily. I don't have a good memory, unlike most people. I mean, I REALLY dont have a good memory. And then so happens the other time I forgot that next week's her concert week, and I made plans with my other friends. She got mad, or frustrated, I don't really know. After realizing my mistake I cancelled my plans with my other friends, but she was still being moody and all. I then got really irritated too, at the fact that she didn't wanna tell me whats wrong or whats on her mind, and at the fact that I apologised and tried to make things right but she kept on being moody. We sorta got into a silent argument after that. Sigh. Me getting irritated and frustrated didn't help things much. I knew I was wrong in being irritated and all, and after some talk things got straightened out. But I was really scared during that time, scared that I would just blurt something out, something that would make things worse, etc, scared that I would lose her then. I guess I was selfish, cuz I didn't understand why she didn't wanna share things with me that time, didn't wanna tell me whats on her mind. Is it true that somethings are just hard to say, sometimes too many thoughts cloud the mind and makes it hard to translate thoughts into words? I can't say it's not true, cuz it happened to me before, and that was what was going on with her. Guess I shouldn't have pushed her to say things that she can't. I promised to her, and to myself, that I won't.
 
Then there are a few minor issues, like sometimes she feels like I'm obliged or forced to do things with her. Tomorow we'll be going over to her college to get some stuff, and we were talking about the plans on how to get there since there was an obvious transportation and cost problem. Yea maybe I sounded reluctant in going, cuz I was just gonna follow her there to get stuff then come back. But that's just me. Sometimes I can get sarcastic without myself knowing it, and it will sound like I'm serious. Thats another problem with me I guess. =/ But I wasn't reluctant at all in going. I wanted to spend more time with her, cuz we didn't really spend much time together during the weekend, not as much as I expected. Maybe I haven't made her secure enough, maybe I haven't convinced her that I would do ANYTHING for her, even if it means accompanying her to her college and having lunch together and then coming back home. I hope one day she'll be convinced of that. Till then, I'll be trying and giving my all to accomplish that.

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I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
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It's 3am and I gotta wake up at 9am later. Long day too :)
Goodnight world. Sweet dreams my love. 

Wonder if keeping so many (or at least a few) blogspots actually have a bad side. At the moment, I keep a personal diary, Woon and I are keeping another book as a momento of what we did together and what happened to us or when we're together (or so it was my idea), and then this blog which I'm sharing with him now :P Well, it's just that I had things to say when I got back from church this afternoon and I have already written down some of the stuffs in one of the books. And just now, I didn't know how to start; or rather, I didn't know what to write. ...

Nevermind, I'll just post whatever that runs through my mind. The use of the phrase 'just now'. From what I used to learned, the phrase is used to describe a time passed not long ago, as in 'tadi'. I once met this American lecturer in the place I used to work, he often asked me this question "Are you going home just now?" when usually we people will say "Are you going home now?" Hmm, just wondering if that's another common mistake in Malaysia :P


Wondering if these few weeks spent...was a lil too much...or how shall I put it? Too often? Dunno. Can't seem to find the right words now. Just that sometimes situation gets a lil bit uptight and irritations and misunderstandings happen. Sigh. Dunno. I guess maybe I'm just 'adjourning' to the 'higher' level in a relationship :P Or Maybe things just got more serious and I didn't actually think this deeply in the beginning. I mean, I know it's something serious but I didn't think it'll be this serious, and frankly, I have never given it a deep thought about our future; or at least not as far as him :P
I guess people will just have to grow, whether they like it or not. I don't mean I'm not trying to grow or I don't wanna grow, but just that when you grow more matured, you tend to have more thoughts, more responsibilties, more cares, more obligations, just more of everything. Okay, let's just stop there before I mess myself up again. I'm starting to feel a lil messy now. What I know now, and I can say, is that if I'm am freaked out about this now [which I'm not], there's a greater fear for me to care about in the future. Am I making sense here? It made sense to me just now :P Okay, nevermind. Let's stop.

So my baby came over yesterday morning. He slept while I was off to my band practise which ended late in the evening. Until dinner time, in fact :P And then had to go back to church to do a banner for our concert this Saturday. See, all these happen when you have insufficient number of people in your youth group. The number of youths you can gather to form an evangelistic concert, is the same number of people that can help in organising other agendas and preparing props for it. Hehe, not complaining but it has been loads of fun. Tiring, but fun. Went thru lotsa worries, burdening times, unsatisfactory, inconfidence...but now, altho it is not over yet, I think we're gonna miss those times. We're gonna miss each other as in jamming together, or doing some drama or movie together :P Hehe. gosh, it'll always stay cool in us :P At least for me :P

Anyway, yea, back to what i started off with :P Hehe, my baby slept sooo soundly. Guess what he did in his sleep? :P Hehe...nah, I'm not gonna tell it...You ask him :P
Sunday sevice ended late today. Like the past few weeks, it ended around 4pm, if I'm not mistaken. Worsip was so great! :P Hehe, so long nvr played with the tambourine edy. Nice playing it with Jia Yee :P And then had to sell floats again...wahlau...ppl come to buy all att one time man. Like those times when I used to help my mom out at her stall. Busy like mad. But my baby bought me a float :P Hehe..upon request :P ...

Hmm, I'm supposed to write a formal letter for my college accommodation. How did I end up here? :P Gonna go to my college tomorrow. Hope tomorrow's not a bummer. And those people in the Students' Services Dept. better be good. LUCT's staffs just .... ugh!!

Thirsty thirsty. How nice to have another float now :P Hehe. Nites...or rather morning ;P

Wee...!!!! I'm in Woony's page!! bwahaha... :P Hmm...still in a daze. Just came home from the movie, Prince and Me. Julia Stiles!! ;P Almost made me cry..eee...esp when she wanted to leave the Prince..but felt so nice holding Woon in my arms then ;P

Hmm..ok...I'm just so used to keeping a diary as in a book for myself..am free to write just about anything. Yea, so we're home now...I mean, in his house :P Had a great dinner wif his family todayy...great big eaters :P no offence. hehe...ok..so I'm not a big eater...like someone :P

Hmm...so many distractions...take so long js to write something..got another book waiting to b filled oso larrr....hmm...and I'm so lazy :P Tata for now ;) =) *muackz*

Oh..happy 7th-month anniversary baby ;) *muackz* We've been on a rollercoaster for 7 months... :P

Hoobastank - The Reason

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I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
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Life seems like a fairytale now. I'm back in Kuala Lumpur for my summer holidays. I've spent wonderful times with my darling since I got back two weeks ago. It's been two weeks =/ and there's just another month left. Heh, how much can I ask for?

I know it's been a long time since I posted. I'll make it up and write a looong one this time :) Well, one reason, or excuse whatever suits, was that I didnt really have the mood to blog anything for almost the entirety of last month. I can't do things if I don't have the mood to do it, thats just me. Then I had my exams and finals (which was a pretty horrible yet enlightening and awakening experience for me, more later...) and also some university stuff I had to do. In simple words, I was busy :P

Did I mention I had a terrible exam? Well, I had all 3 final exams on one day. First time in my entire 2 years in college I've had all my exams on one day. Well there's a first for everything right? Anyway, so I had my History 17A (Early US History 1700-1800) at 7.30am-9.30am, Biology 10 (Introduction to Biology) at 12.30pm-2.30pm, and Physics 4B (Electricity and Magnetism) at 6.15pm-8.15pm. Exams the whole day!! So the problems started I guess with me not sleeping the previous night, cuz I was studying for all my exams, or rather as many people say it, burning the midnight(and early morning) oil. I thought I would make it through the day, and surprise surprise!! I didn't. I got through History and Bio very well, expecting both As for those two classes. Physics was a different story. After Bio I was extreeeemly tired, exhausted, and sleepy. I got back home, went straight to my Physics book, and started studying for my Physics final. I knew I should've went to Starbucks to get some coffee and study there, but I figured studying in my room was good enough. Guess what? I dozed off while studying. My exam started at 6.30pm. I dozed off at around 5pm. Yes I know you know what happened and I can hear the OMGs and WTHs everywhere. For those of you who still have not the slightest idea, I slept and I didn't wake up till 7.45pm, which was half an hour before my final ENDS!!!! Oh, and not forgetting I have a C in the class before my final exam, and I had to get a 50% our of 100% to maintain the C. Missing the final exam equals an automatic F in the class. Yup yup I had to ge a C or more or else my university admission would be voided. I woke up, looked at my alarm clock staring at me in the face with the numbers 7:42 and I jumped out literally, gathered myself and after being fully aware of what happened, I screamed, panicked, well you name it. I regained my sanity after a while and hurried to school, and by the time I reached the class I had 15 minutes left to do the exam =( 15 minutes to do a 2 hour exam with 7 questions. I could feel my eyes gettng watery as I was doing the paper. All the panic and frustration and everything made me go blank. I thought I was still dreaming, sadly I wasn't. I did partially 5 questions and another 2 questions I left blank cuz I didnt know how to do them. 5/7 questions, and all partially done. I had like a 20% chance of getting a 50/100. =/

I went home, called my parents told them what happened, call my uncle and aunt as well as my dearest. I cried while talking to my parents. That was the 2nd time I cried that much. It was my LAST exam and the exam that would determine my entry into UC Berkeley and I messed it up!!! Life just likes to play tricks on me. It wasn't the only time it has done something like that, to make things seem so good then at the end mess it up for whatsoever reason. Happens like a gazillion times already. When I called Julia I was crying, but without the tears - there weren't any tears left =/ That day all the stress and emotions and everything that accumulated inside me erupted all at once. The thought of disappointing my parents, my family, everyone, and also the thought of not being able to go back to KL to see Julia cuz if I failed I will have to stay back durign summer to retake my Physics in summer (which is not offered in my college but in another college 1 bus ride away) - all that plus a lot of other thoughts was just too much for me to handle.

And so I did something I don't do often - pray to God. I prayed kneeling down on my bed, praying to God that everything would turn out right, praying that a miracle would happen and I will actually get a C in my Physics class. I asked God for forgiveness for not giving him praise for a long time, for not going to church and straying away from the Christian path. I prayed that if me failing my exams would be a punishment for me then so be it. If God has other plans for me instead of Computer Science or whatever then so be it. I promised God that whatever happens, it's God's will and I promised to be a better Christian and go to church every week, and to be on fire for God. It's hard, but I will try my best. I went outside my house, sat down by the road on the pavement, stared at the sky and the few stars that dotted it, and just sat there. The night was quiet, hardly anything disturbed the serenity and peace except for this one street light that was continuously dimming and getting brighter. I wished I could live a life like that. Quiet, peaceful, away from the stresses and chaos of everyday life, and just do nothing but seek peace.

And so the drama's over, the climax of the story reached. I realised I could do nothing but just pray that a miracle would happen, and just put my trust in God. I did. It wasn't until 4 days later when I emailed my instructor for my results, and he replied. The instant I saw the email in my inbox my heart was going bonkers. Moving my mouse and clicking on the email seemed like forever and was torturous. I opened the email that contained a letter of the alphabet. It wasn't an A (doh), wasn't an F (phew!), wasn't a B (doh again), but wasn't a D either!! My prayers were answered and miraculously I got a C!!!! Praise God!! I was soooooo happy and if any of you were there I would treat you to a nice expensive dinner I don't care lol. Bottomline is, I learnt a lot of things. Trusting God and putting faith in him is one, sleeping before the day of finals is another. God is good but I shouldn't 'test' Him up there all the time thats why my mom and aunt says lol. And I won't.

I guess if life didn't play tricks on me life wouldn't be so exciting and meaningful. If dreams were the same all the time it wouldn't be fun. If directors didn't play tricks on their audiences in the movies then nobody would watch them. If I were to choose between a life full of happiness only and a life with a mix of happiness and sadness and positive as well as negative emotions, I'd choose the latter. I wouldn't want to die till I've experienced all the feelings one can experience as a human being.

I'm happy being here back in KL and all. Julia was there waiting for me at the airport. I was so overjoyed and ecsatatic being able to see her again after 6 months. Probably not many of you've been apart from your love for so long and then seeing them again, being able to touch and hug and kiss and feel the warmth of the other person again. Feels alot better than if you hadn't been apart frm that person for a long time. Much much better.

Well so far these two weeks here in KL most of my time's been spent with Julia, the other with my other love - bowling. Speaking of bowling, there's a novice bowling competition coming soon on the 27th in Midvalley Cosmic Bowl. Don't know if I wanna join just for kicks. After all it's a beginner's competition and I'm a beginner. 35 bucks and the prize is... oh wait I don't know.... Anyway nevermind. Mmmmm so many things to do the next month. Gonna go catch a movie with her later today. Watching "Prince and Me". Don't know if it's nice or not but there aren't any nice movies to watch that I haven't watched. King Arthur's out on Thursday which is tomorow. I tought we could catch King Arthur tomorow as well but it's gonna be 11 bucks tomorow and Julz says can wait till next Wednesday. Then Friday I'll be going over to her place till Sunday night. Next week probably do something which I promised her I would do - ice skating, most likely at the Mines since Pyramid's more expensive and quite packed. A couple of things that I wanna do together with her before I get back to the US next month too, but I'll leave that to blog for another day.

I wish I could stay in KL longer. Wish UC Berkeley was located here in KL. I dont wanna leaveeee!!! *sob*. And it's 2.03AM and I have to wake up at 10am later. Slept at 3am yesterday, ended up waking at 3pm. Gonna get some rest. I have soo much more to type yet so little energy to do so. Well, I guess I'll jet.

Goodnight world.

I still can't believe I got admitted into Berkeley. Hope they didn't make a mistake LOL. It's not easy to get into UCBerkeley, kinda competitive and especially with the budget cuts on education here which limits the number of students they take in.

I got my admission letter today through the mail finally!! Have no idea why they sent it to my old address cuz I updated my address a month ago. Anyway post office forwarded it to my current address so it's all good.

Here's some pics :P








Just hope no last minute surprises or I'll really get pissed off =p

Playing: Michael Learns To Rock - Someday

Heh, was bored and so I was surfing the net and came across this auction on Ebay:
Click here

Its fora freakin wedding dress!!! 12 Million hits!! The seller was on TV too! Did I mention he's selling that dress, which belongs to his ex-wife which he divorced, and he bought it for $1200? The bidding ended at $4000 almost. Geezzz, the things people can get out of Ebay :P

Maybe I should start selling something bizarre too. I'll be an overnight celebrity =p

I admire that guy lol. He even put on that gown for photos.

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!!!! OMMMMMGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!



April 30, 2004




Dear Heng,

On behalf of the University community, it is my honor to offer you admission to Berkeley! Your application has been approved for the fall semester 2004. Given the record number and extraordinary quality of applicants this year, we hope that you will consider your admission a great accomplishment. You and your family have every reason to be proud of your academic and personal achievements.

Berkeley offers a learning atmosphere full of possibilities that you will not find anywhere else. Our long-standing reputation for academic excellence and scientific innovation, along with a campus tradition of social and political involvement, has attracted a world-renowned faculty and one of the most talented and diverse student bodies in the nation.

Now we invite you to explore this website, which contains valuable information that you will need to accept our offer of admission. You will not be receiving future mailings containing this information —you must visit the "Next Steps" page (tab above) and complete the items indicated. We also invite you to visit (or re-visit) Berkeley in the next few weeks for a first-hand look at what our campus has to offer. If you need help accessing information, or would like to speak with an admissions officer, please call (510) 642-3175.

Again, congratulations! We hope that you will choose to join us and make Berkeley’s vast opportunities your own. There is truly no place like Berkeley. Anywhere.

Sincerely,


Pamela L. Burnett
Director

P.S. You will be receiving your "official" letter and an admission certificate in the mail shortly. For security reasons, the P.S. of the letter will contain important information you will need to complete some of your "Next Steps" checklist items.

omg!

Dear Transfer Student,

Congratulations on your admissions to the University of California San Diego!

We would like to help you plan a successful transition to UCSD. If you have questions about
your provisional contract for admissions, what to expect during orientation, searching for
off-campus housing, or how to get involved in activities with transfer students, then plan to
join us.


didn't expect to get into UCSD cuz they require physics classes that I can't complete in time.

shucks. UCSD is a better school than UCSanta Cruz but UCSD only offers a BS in Comp sci and requires physics classes.... ahhh!

Havent gotten any reply from UCBerkeley yet...... its already end of the month..... supposed to know today... and i havent received a mail from them =\ UCB is my first choice if i do get in

Savage Garden - Truly Madly Deeply

Here I am again putting my lazy ass over here to blog a new entry, finally, after so long, but it's gonna be a short one :P Damn I just realised there's something wrong with my page. Don't know if it's just my compter or everyone else cuz my page seems to load extreeeeeeeeemely slow and the sidebars/shoutbox doesn't load or sumthing. Oh well =|

Just got out of bed. So sleepy still. 8 hour rest. I'm a pig. I love sleeping. Doesn't everyone else? :P

This Savage Garden song's reaaaalyyy old, but it's still one of the nicest songs I've heard. Oh, easy to sing too !

Just got my new webcam!!! Sold my old one for 15 bucks (I bought it for 30$) on ebay. Got my new webcam on ebay and it cost me 60$ including shipping and handling. 10 $ for shipping man!!!! Price of camera was only 50$ but the shipping killeddd meee.... *groans*. I love my new webcam!!!!! Logitech QuickCam Pro 4000!!! Totally beats my old webcam. :)

Im hungry. Gonna go grab some breakfast. Sourdough bread + butter. *drools*

see ya in the next month lol

-out

Current class schedule:

Monday    8.30am-9.20am (History) 6pm-10.45pm (Physics)

Tuesday   8.30am-9.20am (History) 9.30am-2pm (Biology)

Wednesday 8.30am-9.20am (History) 6pm-8pm (Physics)

Thursday  8.30am-9.20am (history) 12.30pm-2pm (Biology)

My schedule's quite interesting this quarter. Especially the late monday night one lol. Man.... I hope I'll survive... :P One good thing is.... I have fridays off!!!!

Norah Jones - Those Sweet Words

Finally spring break is coming to an end and classes are gonna start this Monday. Not really excited to go back to studying but then I think it's still better than rotting at home. The holidays' been making me lazy and I need to start getting in high gear once classes start. I'm taking Biology 10 (Intro to Biology), Physics 4B (Electromagntism and Electricity n stuff like that I think), and History 17A (Early American History) this quarter. *shrug* This quarter, being my last quarter at De Anza college, is gonna be my most difficult quarter =/ I guess I like to leave the best for the last :P

So after being here in California for 2 years, I finally visited San Francisco, on Friday :P Left my house at 6.30am, spent $1.50 on a bus trip to the Sunnyvale Caltrain Station in, duh, Sunnyvale, and paid $4.25 for a train ticket to SF. Damn train trip's expensive but the trains are good. Nice seats, double deckered, certainly beats Malaysia's KTM service :P though the caltrain is the Malaysian equivalent of the KTM in terms of it's uses. Whole ride took about 2 hours.

Got off at the San Francisco station, paid another $1.25 for a bus ride down to Market Street then hopped on a cable car ($3.00) which took me down to Fisherman's Wharf. 3 bucks for the damn cable car ride. But it was worth it though. And mind you the cable car isn't like those usual cable cars that hang from a wire or cable. This one's on rails that are built into the roads, not suspended or anything. It was fun though, going up the hills and down and up the hills. Got a good view of the Bay on the way down. Oh and for people who like the thrill of riding down a roller coaster, the cable car ride has that sort of thrill when arriving at the top of a hill and going down the hill. Yes the hills in SF are STEEP! I doubt anyone who has faulty brakes in their car would wanna drive in Downtown San Francisco. The whole city is built on hills and there's steep hills every where. Don't bother driving a Kancil or Proton in SF. Won't even be able to go up some roads lol.

Once at Fisherman's Wharf, walked to Pier 39, looked around at some shops, then went to the end of the pier to look at the sea lions lazing around. For those of you who think pigs are lazy :P , sea lions are like uber lazy. There were like maybe 50 sea lions lying on wooden planks in the water and just .... lying there. There were of course a few active ones jumping into the water and crawling over the other resting sea lions' backs. The sounds that they make are kinda irritating too after a while, though fascinating at first =p *sigh* How I wished my darling Julia was there with me going around the wharf. =/ Once I got tired of the sea lions I went to Pier 45 ( I think ) and went inside a WWII submarine, the USS Pampanito. Yea it's a REAL WWII submarine, restored to it's original condition. I've always been fascinated with submarines and it was a real experience being in one, especially one that had some WWII action, sunk 7 or 6 Japanese ships, and also took some damage from depth charges. The corridors in the submarine could hardly have 2 people walking through at the same time, well, 2 people could walk past each other but they had to face their back against the wall n walk. To get to another part of the submarine you had to squeeze yourself through a small hole, yea like in the movies. I doubt I would have enjoyed working in a submarine, having to bend myself down all the time while going through sections of the sub and also looking out for overhead obstacles. If you're claustrophobic, don't ever think of stepping into a submarine. Lots of instruments and meters and confusing stuff inside too. Every section of the ship had little space, even the crew's quarters, which had about 20 bunk beds for 75-80 crew members. Interesting fact: a broom placed upside down at the top of the submarine signifies a 'clean sweep', meaning the sub sank all the enemy ships it was assigned to hit or encountered during it's mission. Submarine visit costed $7.00 by the way.

For lunch I went to Nonna's Rose Restaurant, a really good restaurant by the way. I spent like an hour looking for where to eat, as there were so many restaurants just right beside each other. There were stalls right in front of the restaurants too, each stall though different, had Dungeness Crabs displayed and offered for customers. Each Dungeness Crab I think cost about 20 bucks, and they price it by the weight and market price at that time. Dungeness Crabs are popular in SF. They are DELICIOUS! Lunch cost me 28 bucks, and I only ordered one item. Damn expensive, but daaaaaammmmmnn nice. I had Dungeness Crab Cioppino, and that was like the best dish I've ever remember having. Cioppino is the name of the person who created that recipe I think. It was a dish that had mussels, half a Dungeness crab, prawns, oysters, a bit of lobster, clams, all topped with a special broth. The broth's like those used in Chinese crab dishes, the tomato and mildy hot kind of broth, but this tasted different, a lot better. Arghhhhhhh thinking of it just makes me wanna go down there to have that meal again. I would definitely just drive down to eat that if I had a car.

Then I went to Ghiradelli (is that how u spell it?) Square, the place where the Ghiradelli Company made chocolates in the past. The Ghiradelli building is still there, just that it's not really a chocolate factory anymore and several other different shops occupied the building. For those of you who don't know, Ghiradelli chocolates are one of the best, and is famous in San Francisco ( duh, its made in SF ). I had a Chocolate Fudge ice cream in the Ghiradelli Chocolate and Soda Fountain shop. The ice cream was great but the fudge was a lil too sweet. Kinda reminded me of the time when Julia and I were having Baskin Robbins in Midvalley. All the time I was thinking how nice it would be if Julz would be right with me having fun. Inside the shop they had on display the machines and the chocolate making process. Quite interesting how they made chocolates, they melt the cocoa nibs using very high frictional heat to produce chocolate liquor (unsweetened chocolate). Then they mix the choc liquor with other ingredients, depending on what kind of chocolate they're making, using 2 hugeeeee granite rollers, and the product is then transferred to a mixer so that they don't solidify yet. They didn't show how they finally create the chocolate bars with the melted chocolate though.

Finally got enough of Fisherman's Wharf and I took the cable car back to Downtown San Francisco. Went to Union Square in SF, where all the branded designer shops are. Stuff like Luis Vuitton, Hilfiger, Burberry, Guess, Armani, Dior, etc etc. And there was a HUGE Nike store! 3 levels! Didn't buy anything in Downtown SF though, everything was like sooo expensive. Definitely a place I would wanna shop if I had all the money I want.

Spent about 2-3 hours walking around in Downtown SF. Went Chinatown too. My legs were like aching already while in Chinatown. You have NO idea how many hills and slopes there are to climb in the city. Chinatown's like the Petaling Street we have in KL, but bigger, and busier. Nothing really nice to see in Chinatown. Lots of good dim sum restaurants and Chinese food, I heard.

Left SF at about 5pm and arrived home about 7.30pm. Was so tired that I slept on my chair while waiting for some people online to reply my ICQ messages lol. Anyway, SF is a place I'd love to stay if I had to choose a place to stay in California. The view overlooking the bay is great, everything's great, and yes, everything's expensive too. Unless I win the lottery jackpot, living there would still only be a dream. It's a dream worth dreaming though :P

Gonna go clean up my messy room. Getting ready for classes tomorow.

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