Greetings from hell.

Yes, I just came from hell. CS61C midterm was insane. UGHHHHH!!! So much math, dealing with floating point etc, confusing like crap. And I know I didnt do well =\ Sigh. I still have loads of work to do which I didnt do during the weekend cuz I was preparing for this midterm.

I just wish Stress would go hide in his little hole and never come out again.

Well think that's all I wanna blog, it's 10pm and I'm dead tired. 7pm-10pm midterm, so, go figure.

Nitez people. Hope you're having a better day than I am.

Am I gonna be seperated from my friends? I can't believe what I'm hearing and seeing!! Oh gosh...Diploma and Degree students are going different ways? And most of my friends [those girls I hang out with now] are ALL attached with the degree program!!! Leaving me alone in diploma....

Crap! Why did this have to happen??? Everything seemed to go on sooo well...and suddenly... ;( Oh my gosh, I can't believe this... And some April intake girls told me most of the people from her batch are taking diploma. And apparently, they aren't as nice as our batch. Well, I dunno how bad but these girls themself called them freaks...They even tipped me who to mix and who's not to; for my own good. Shoot man...I was just starting to feel good of myself and enjoying this course, myself and the company of my friends here...and yes, after so long, feeling proud of my own work...OUR work. I thought we could still be together till next sem and so on... Well, guess it's not going to happen. Sigh, at least I'm back with Paul and Miau. *Oh joy*

Am I being reasonable here? I don't even know if I'm being rational or not. Whatever. But it's just freaking me out to think about the consequences of the matter. Maybe I'll go check with the registry or something when I get back to school. I've checked the website, but it's too vague.

Since the beginning, I knew this year was to be foundation year - in design but not INTERIOR DESIGN. Ah, long story. Everything is so confusing. Darn the management. According to the timtable, most of us, if not everyone, thought we would be taking those subjects laid out throughout our course together. And for those taking diploma will stop right after they got their diploma while the degree students will go on with the course. But now, it seems like the degree program has different subjects compared to the diploma program. And according to the website, if you refer to the subjects listed, the degree students are actually studying 2 semesters of the diploma program NOW. Is that weird or what? Or issit just me who can't think things through now? Ah...what the foot...

Axonometric drawing is so darn hard....I've been sitting out there for hours and I've only done like...one room??? I've got so many more rooms to go!! Y'know...a bungalow. Dang...

I'm so idealess now, that I don't even care if that word actually exists. I'm just so tired and have no idea how to draw!! Plus, I've got other assignments to handle too. Argh, just what am I doing? Things seemed to be fine before this...yea, before this, as in last week. Gee, hope I don't get a C for drawing again. I know it sux but well...sigh...whatever. Technical drawing is just a drag..wonder who on earth created it.......cannot do this, cannot do that...must do like this, must that way...jorrrrrrrr........................

I wanna sleep!!!!!!!! I don't care anymore!!!!!!!! I need some rest although I think I've got enough rest for the past few days. Maybe my body's getting used to the rest-more-do lesser-work kind of state. I seem to lack the interest doing my asses and actually like resting more...compared to the past 2 weeks :P Ahaha....rajin for a while only :P Whatever la...I DO need some rest...and more food. I'm like darn hugnry now. Gonna get gastric soon.

Ooh, speaking of that, I've just heard 2 cases of denggue in my apartment. My drawing classmate, who had just recovered from denggue fever, and Ian Chai!! Our dear friend..I saw him in school last Thursday. He suddenly came up to me and asked if I was going home then. I replied no since I was planning to stay over at Mitra's place. It was a little peculiar of him to suddenly ask me that since apparently he looked for me in purpose, just to ask me that. He then told me he has got fever. And I didn't seem to care :P Cos I was hungry and my food was waiting for me on the table!! Ahh...how nice could I be? ... Then, Emily told me this evening that he got denggue fever too. And it has already been twice in this week those fellas came to spray some repellent or what-you-call that at our condo. Sigh, maybe I'll call him this weekend. But hope I don't get it too :P I've been spending most of my nights in Mitra's place anyway.

Hmm, by the way, wasn't someone suspected to have denggue before this? That shocked the parents, man.... :P

Anywayyy....think I'm gonna sleep. Besides, Heng Woon should be in class at this time. Came to relax my mind and to check if he left me any message. So far, nope :P I'll see ya another day then, darling. *muackz*

Nites nites nites....morning morning morning...siao siao siao.... -_-" lame lame lame....

It's the worst day of my life....or maybe not so bad yet. May not be the WORST...but it is still bad. I really disappointed and pissed..actually more disappointed than pissed - Disppointed with myself, disappointed with 2 other friends, ... just so disappointed. Sigh...what is the problem here??!?? I was only trying to show my best performance and... sigh...

Or maybe I'm not even supposed to blame anyone or anything, cos it's not like I'm faultless. But days without them were actually good, in a way. I could finish my asses on time and I'm just so proud of that, honestly. Everyone who knows me, knows I'm a little Miss Late; for anything. For the past few days, I've stayed up on my own to finish up all my asses and I've done it. And you know what is good? I received compliments for my work from my friends who have seen it. I just felt so proud okay, honestly. Won't you feel good if it were for you? You spent hours working on the computer with those darn graphics, or a whole night drawing the interior of a bungalow using those darn technical pens that smeared on you and the floor and made you so dirty, and when you went to school, most of your peers check out on your work and commented how nice it is. You feel great right?

And then one thing HAD to bring me down. I don't know how to put them in words but i just gotta say it's really disappointing. You don't get what you expect and in fact, you didn't even learn from your previous mistakes, which is not to trust or rely on those group members anymore. Gah, what was I thinking?? That they would change? That they would be different from how they were during last sem? Oh well, it appeared to me that they haven't changed a bit. They're still the same old people I used to know.

To think back, without them, my days were actually brighter; but well, with the company of a new group of friends - friends who care more about their assignments and classes, friends who are more capable of doing things, and friends who are definitely responsible. Honestly speaking, these girls were really nice. In fact, I've started to hang out with them now, and everything just seem to go on so smoothly. Sigh, why did it just have to go down to the drain...

It's 10.41am now. Worked my ass thru since yest evening till 2am+ this morning, did a little design for a tutorial I was supposed to go, slept at 4am, set my alarm at 6am. I do remember hearing my alarm going off and me waking up to turn it off. But I was just so tired that my eyes couldn't even open. Haven't been sleeping much for the past few days and those darn dark rings are just getting bigger. The next moment I opened my eyes, it was already 8.50am, exactly the time the second bus leaves. My tutorial was at 9am, and there was another bus at 9.45am. Okay, so at this point, I'm being myself. I was still in a daze, so I thought I could rest for another few minutes. But that few minutes became an hour. I ended up waking at 9.50am. ............

I can't afford to take anymore cabs coz I haven't got much money and I have some printing to be done today. I've only got a 50bux in my purse now. Definitely not going to be enough if i take the cab. So, anyway, I have to skip today's tutorial [which is advisable to attend], go to school in the afternoon, look for my tutor, print out my submission for Material's class, and then flip through the pages of my Material's notes for this afternoon's quiz. What the foot?!??!? Quiz!!!!

Like... -_-" .........................

My eyes are like swollen now...no they're not literally swollen, but I just feel as if it's swollen. Dunno why but when my friend called me up to ask if I was going to school, a few drop of tears just rolled out automatically and I was a little choked with sobs. Yea, crybaby...wuteva you say. I did try to be strong lately but this is just disappointing. Look, I didn't choose to cry okay.

Sigh, wonder if anyone who reads this will understand. Hahah...but nevermind. Just wanna voice it out. I feel better now. Ciao. Gotta get ready for the noon bus.