• Heng Woon's busy, that's why his last blog was dated Sept the 1st. And I suppose he didn't even bother to read the latest updates of his 'shared' blog :P
• I don't think anyone would actually read these posts of mine since the main person didn't even blog and besides, it wasn't my blog in the first place.
• Sometimes, I wish Jasmine would read this page and know what is going through my mind; for things that I have no idea how to relate it to her in words or actions as we don't see each other that much anymore. And not forgetting how grateful I would be if she ever leaves a comment after my posts so I would know what is going through her mind too. I somehow think it all started ever since I got together with Woon. Not anyone's fault but mine.
• I feel as if I'm starting to lose all my friends; or maybe I already have. Ever since Paul and Miau shifted out, my place has been so quite, and I'm often alone. Ian has his own gang now, and even Mr Law don't come down here to chat anymore, like how he used to do. Paul and Miau have their own gang in school too. Everything is so different now. I don't even know what else to say.
• I had a weird dream of Jasmine being a different person and treated me differently too. The thing is, it didn't feel weird at all in the dream. She dressed differently, talked differently, hangs out with different people, and didn't even bother about my existence. When I woke up, I first felt it was a funny dream as that has never happened before. But when I gave it a second thought, I realised that was actually what was in my mind a long time ago; when she started college, hangs out with a bunch of girls who calls themselves 'The Doons', started to club, drink liquor...maybe all these are part of what the norms would do at this age. But somehow, I feel as if we're like 2 different people already - well, sorta. I kinda felt like a stranger the last time I hung out with her and some other ex-schoolmates which I've never seen for ages - laughing and talking about stuffs which I don't understand.
• All I want is some moments when I don't have to be alone. All I want is some attention. All I want is some companyl. Is that too much to ask?
• It's the mid-term break. Every faculty gets a week break. I should've went home earlier. My roomate left right after her class, and Emily left after dinner. All of my neighbours went back to their hometowns too. So who else is left here? Me, myself and I. And that was also because I wasn't feeling well since yesterday; if someone would've noticed.
• It's 11pm here, so it should be 8am over in the US. It's Friday morning, if I remember correctly, Woon should've class until 2pm the latest. He has yet to reply my MSN message which I have sent a few hours ago and he's now offline. He's probably got disconnected or something. It's just so difficult to talk to him nowadays, since he has gotten so busy compared to the time he was in Cupertino. Everytime I get a chance to be online, it would either be his early morning or his late night, when he would either be sleeping, or busy studying.
• Yea, mid-term break; a break for classes but not assignments. Technically, I have about 4 major projects to be done, and some of the projects have like 2 seperate tasks. So overall, there are about 7 tasks to be done in one week, cos they are all due after the break. So far, I've just finished a project of the most important subject in ID, which was a group project by the way, and it's always meant to be the toughest one. All of us 'suffered' throughout the whole process cos it wasn't only this project that was killing us, but also assignments of other subjects. Somehow, they were all due around the same time. Everyone had sleepless nights [which is not surprising]. In addition, I hadn't really eaten for the past week, cos I have to cook myself. My pants are getting so loose now and the last time I weighed myself right after dinner, I was only 52kgs, when based on my height, I'm supposed to be much heavier than that. I guess that's how I got weak and wasn't feeling alright earlier. Thankfully, I could still stand until the end of the last presentation of the week.
• I am easily distracted, easily confused, selfish, sensitive in unnecessary things, and I think whatever that has happened, happened because of me. If I were to blame others, it might just be unfair. However, this 2nd sem of mine, will act as a reminder to me as the consequence of what I have done in the past before. Having most of the pieces of your world to fall apart shortly one after another, is certainly not a very pleasant thing to have in your life; especially when you thought you already have them and you won't loose them. I guess thing cannot always be taken for granted.