Oh man.....one day, there'll probably be fungus growing on me. Can you believ it? I was actually alone in my small apartment half of the day?? My roomate went out with her friends, Emily went to KL to do her site analysis, which by the way, I have done mine with my group members, I was supposed to go out with my friends but since he NEVER replied my SMS or called me, I stayed at home thinking I could at least finish up my journal on my site analysis project. But then again, I didn't have that darn book (which I intended to buy in the morning but my friend overslept and didn't come to pick me up) to start writing my report, so I practically had nothing much to do but to watch TV, which by the way again, there weren't many programmes today. Most of my neighbours went back to their hometown so my area is like totally....QUIET. Now I finally understand why Paul and Miau had to go out when there isn't any assignment to do. Cos they ahve got no access to the Net (when I had before I lost my computer) and there really isn't much to do here in Puchong. Shops are far away.

I'm now in Sutra Mas, where Paul and Miau stays. Hanging out in this nice CC; noisy and loud but well, better than my house. Went to shop at Tesco earlier cos I've finished my food and honestly, I needed to get out of that place. And since Tesco was near Sutra Mas, I had my friend to send me there since he was going there too.Whoa, was so happy and relaxed to actually meet my friends...I mean really. Most of my close friends moved here and left me alone in Millenium...although there's no broadband or Internet access in their house yet, still, there's someone to talk to and joke with..hmm, considering to stay over here tonight...ooh, my assignment!! Ahh, Paul's gonna send me home soon so I'll just have to grab everything and come over. Yay!!!!

Ok, then tomorrow go to KL Wesley. Done. ;) :)

I think there's a tag saying "I am LONELY" hanging around my neck. Sigh...do I have to cry myself to sleep everynight?

I'm stresseD!!!

What a day...ass to be done!!! Arrghhh!!! Hungry. Stomach discomfort. Ass due tomorrow... PRESENTATION!!! Tired. Forgetful. Lonely. Messy. "-_-

So my baby went back to US this morning. Well, thought it would be hard to let him go since there have been so much that we have been through and the possibilty of seeing him in a
year's time from now. But well, there is a possibilty of him coming back home in December too. Actually, to think about it, it's not all that hard. Maybe it was just me. Or maybe it was just me who was very tired, sleepy and exhausted this morning. Didn't have enough sleep for the 2 previous nights. But what I do know, that I wasn't feeling good after he left; or rather, after my class in the evening. Was tired and I only had about 2 hours of nap, apart from the fact that I was feeling a bit lonely coz (i) most of my previous noisy housemates moved out (ii) there wasn't anyone left for me to call anytime anymore.

Well, anyway, my baby has been really sweet to me. I did feel happier after he came back. In fact, I could feel his love and care for me despite there were times when I kinda doubted, complained and got sensitive over some minor issues which cost me some unneccesary tears. Dunno, but it seem to be like this...for now.

Like during the last few days, there were some things that I wouldn't wanna forget. I went over to the mamak opposite Mid Valley to have breakfast with my baby on Monday morning, which was only yesterday, by the way. Left Puchong at 6.45am, took the 7am bus which was cramped by high school students and people going to work, and reached MV at 8am. Breakfast wasn't anything special except for my baby who came out directly from bed, with unbrushed teeth (one of the people who brushes their teeth after breakfast) and 'pajamas'. Since my class was at 2pm, I hung out at his house for a while, picked out photos that are to be developed, did a few sketches for my assignment, while my baby acted like a clown behind me. Hehe...well, he managed to make me laugh really hard as he was being childish, clownish and all...just because he was bored :P Yea..thinking of that now is still making me laugh :P

And while leaving, he actually 'subsidised' for my travelling expenses just because my family and I are kind of financially burdened in a way. I was actually touched by that. Felt that he really cared :P Well, not that I've never felt before la but just that, it's a nice feeling all over again. And then there are other minor stuffs too, like, how he went and search for a pail just cos I didn't want to take cold shower in the night; how hard he tried to make me feel better when I was down (and btw, was stubborn to look at the bright side which he was trying to show me :P), the thought of him helping me lightening my financial burdens; found a way to loan me his family's old CPU when I've lost mine; and of cos, the thing that he gave me the night before he left, just to let me know that I was the one he's chasing for, and the one for him.

Sigh...think I have to go now. Using friend's computer. Hmm...gotta finish up my assignment too. Hahah...look at the way i spend my time...and then complain about not having enough sleep the next day :P

Goodnight anyway ;)

I'm now blogging from my college's multimedia lab in the library, which I have never been for the past 4 months or so. It's always packed here since it's shared and no class is ever held here, compared to other multimedia labs which are meant to be classes. There are only about 52 iMacs here, 3 on each table. There are 14 tables here altogether. Well, one thing is, not all the computers are working. Like some computers, either the mouse isn't working, or there's a problem opening Internet Explorer. iMacs just su** sometimes. Or maybe it's just me, who doesn't know how to use :p But well, I'm not the only one who is complaining. Not all the students here needs to use iMac anyway.

Sigh, Friday class. What a drag. WHY WASN'T I PUT IN MONDAY CLASS??????? Now I have to come back for class every Friday morning while my other friends who attends the same subject but on Monday, sleeps at home. Aww maaann, what luck. And most of my close friends are in the Monday class!!! WHY???????? Iyerrr....cannot change also. Go to school alone, go back home alone :( And now I'm onlining alone as well. Why? Coz I'm waiting for the bus to take me home....Class ended at 11am and the darn bus is at noon!!! Haiseh...summore my girlfriend absent laa. SIGH........hope the rest of the Fridays are not as bad as this.

Darn sleepy now. Dunno why, when I slept soundly during the night. Woke up at 4am+, then went to check Woon out in his room. He's still not in a good condition. Still having fever and all. Still got stomach upset. So one good news is, that he's not going home today :) Well, not because he doesn't want to, but because he's having a fever :( and they probably won't let him in. Besides, I think he's too weak to go home by himself. He was fine when I got there yesterday evening. Not to say very fine but was much better compared to the previous day. Could laugh and joke with me summore. Then after dinner, I mean MY dinner, coz he didn't eat anything but fruits, he was feeling weak again. And his face was turning red. The fever was back. Well, he do have some rashes on his hand....those small tiny mosquito bite-like spots; thus, the doctor suspects denggue. Well, logical too but hopefully not. Pray that it's not. Then when I checked on him in the morning, he wasn't that warm anymore, and was sleeping like a baby. He didn't even realise I was with him the first time. ;p

Haha, and then later in the morning, when everyone was awake, I went to check on him again, and asked if he wanted some water coz his lips were dry, he shooked his head. Then his mom came in and said, "See lah, got water don't wanna drink. Don't want to listen lah...Must drink a lot of water!!" He then sat up to get a sip. Hehe...

Ah, time passes so soon when you're having fun. ;p 5more mins to go before the bus arrives. Hope I don't miss the bus, otherwise have to wait untill 2.30pm. Eee....got a few things to do when I get home.

- Take a shower...WASH my hair!!!
- Pack my bags, ready to go HOME!!!
- Withdraw $$, pay up Internet bills.
- Visit Heng Woon again before going home.

Hokey dokey....time's up! Time to go back to my apartment. Cheerio! :) Get well soon baby.

Oh great, I was blogging like ...for half an hour....and then I was checking out the keyboard of this darn Mac, and I accidentally press the Esc button...and voila! Everything I've typed disappeared. ....... "-_- what the foot man....

And I was talking about iMacs. Was saying how much I hate it, yet I like the design and colours. Argh!!!! Eeeee.......so geram laaaaaa.....stoopid Mac...keyboard darn small!!! sure cannot fit fat fingers....like someone :p hehehhe....nah.....jk :p

Blogging from the multimedia lab now....before the multimedia class comes in about 2pm :P It's now 1.35pm. Wanted to blog as much as I could before the class but then, sigh, guess I can't do much now. Oh, anyway, I can hear my friend playing some game here behind me....some game with the drings and the blings and the blupps and the blipps. Hehe, nothing much to do now...it's still the first week. Our first assignment was handed out today. Oh, and I missed the class. LOL I missed an important class.... lol more. "-_-

Well, will blog more about it later...will blog more about other stuffs too. My baby's not feeling well. Gonna go over and see him after my class in the afternoon. It's the first class for Materials 152, so it'll only be an intro class. Shouldn't take long. Hmm, thought I could at first go over and sleep too but now, looks like the bed's taken :p

Sigh.........tomorrow's FRIDAY!!!!! You know what it means...? :( My baby's going back tomorrow.... ;( Boo hoo hooo..... But, well, yea I guess we did spend a lot of time together since he came back. Don't know, sometimes I just don't feel I've had enough. Maybe he'd had enough, but not me. Maybe it's the distance...the loneliness and emptiness I feel when he's not around.....well, I guess if it was me who's leaving, maybe things would be different. Maybe I will feel different. Dunno. Talk bout it later. Class now.

Dan Hill - Sometimes When We Touch

You asked me if I love you
And I choked on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Just realised that whenever I blog from home, I'd never get to listen to the song playing in the background. I could only get online via my Dad's very old computer, which has no speakers or woofer. Oh by the way, his computer is already connected to the Internet line. I've tried connecting my own computer to the same network too, by plugging in the wireless telephone which has a built-in modem, to my computer. But then, I couldn't figure out the way to configure it, so I gave up. Not a computer person anyway. But I wasn't the only one...my baby couldn't do it too :P hehe...but well, he tried without the manual book... :P

Anyway, sigh, I always get carried away from the main topic. Was going to talk about the song being played here... Well, this is our 'theme song' for my baby and I...according to him, it was the first song that I introduced to him. It wasn't during the time when we got together, but the time when we were chatting a lot online. Yea, the time when we first knew each other...

Or maybe, ONE of our theme songs :P Before he told me that he made this our theme song, I've always thought DJ Sammy & Yanou's Heaven was the one, since we first talked about dancing to that song and how it actually clicked with what we were feeling then and all... haha...

Heaven - DJ Sammy ft Yanou & Do

Oh - thinkin' about all our younger years
There was only you and me
We were young and wild and free

Now nothin' can take you away from me
We've been down that road before
But that's over now
You keep me comin' back for more
Baby you're all that I want
When you're lyin' here in my arms
I'm findin' it hard to believe
We're in heaven

And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

Oh - once in your life you find someone
Who will turn your world around
Bring you up when you're feelin' down

Yea - nothin' could change what you mean to me
Oh there's lots that I could say
But just hold me now
Cause our love will light the way

Chorus
I've been waitin' for so long
For somethin' to arrive
For love to come along

Now our dreams are comin' true
Through the good times and the bad
Yea - I'll be standin' there by you

Anyway, I'm blogging from the office now. Hmm, wonder how come I didn't go out today...ohh yea, some stupid fools broke into our house. So it's not really a good time for me to actually go out and have fun. Had some things to be done here anyway, so thought I should come over and see what to be done, before I start my classes on Monday. Ah, classes. Thanks to the enrolment of my classes, the thieves came when no one was at home. And thanks to my college for being situated all the way in Cyberjaya instead of PJ. Argh...

Oh, ah, i got carried away again. Was going to say, I'll have to continue this post when I get home. Blogging while work is not easy :P Haha...be right back :P