Listening to :- Sarah McLachlan - Fallen

It's Monday 1.47am and I can't sleep. Pretty surprised I can't sleep considering I had a really tiring day, and weekend. Stayed over at my darling's place over the weekend. Went over on Saturday afternoon, and knowing the pig I am I slept on the couch in her living room while she went off to her church for her concert practice. Nah, I wasn't being a pig. I was really tired as well. Didn't sleep that well the previous night, was kinda using the comp playing games till early morning 3am. Anyway, arrived at the Nilai KTM station, and had to wait for 45 minutes before Julz and her neighbor (cuz her parents were kinda busy) came to pick me up. Well well well looks like I wasn't the only pig, someone was sleeping when she was supposed to come pick me up :) Anyway I didn't really mind waiting, I went looking for this mamak place to get a drink or eat something but then couldn't find it. She said that for being late she'd "make it up to me", and though it wasn't necessary but I found it really sweet that she said that. Well, thats my darling :)

So yea when we got back to her house I laid back on the sofa and rested my eyes. She then came over to me and gave me a few kisses, a few I think, lol. Felt like I was dreaming right then. :P Then I went to the longer couch and slept there. My darling was so nice to turn on the fan so I wouldn't feel hot. Then a few more kisses and I completely dozed off.

Woke up at about 5.30pm I think, and could hear mom-in-law cooking or something in the kitchen. Slept for 3 hours +. Slept well too. Remembered that my darling woke me up before she left for concert practice and let me know she was leaving. Remember getting a kiss and her saying "rest well" before I completely went back to sleep. Am I really being a pig? :P If so I'm a really pampered one.

Had dinner outside at a chinese restaurant with her and (dad&mom)-in-law after picking her up from church. Food was pretty good, better than that Vietnamese restaurant we had the last time. As usual, I had 2 bowls of rice. Would've had more since I didn't eat lunch, and since everytime I go dine at a chinese restaurants I always eat a few bowls of rice. But then after my 2nd bowl there wasn't any of 'choi' left, so I passed on that 3rd bowl of rice :P

Went back to church after dinner, to help out with some banner thingy. The youths were creating some banner using spray paint, with the words "Dare to defy da' NORM" sprayed graffiti-style in black on a cloth with a yellow-sprayed background. Came out pretty decent. I didn't really help in the spraying, I actually looked on most of the time. The youth people were quite fun, the guys were pretty wacko and all, playing with the spray cans and then posing and taking pictures like they were doing a photoshoot for an album cover. I was outside with them and my darling was inside the building helping out on some drawing for the Sunday School. Had a great time, and got to know the peeps there better. Went back to my darling's house at about 1am, and I could almost hardly walk. Was quiiiite tired and so after taking a shower I went to sleep.

And I thought that was tiring. Woke up 10.30am the next day, only after being woken a few times by my sweetie. Haha ok I AM a pig! Realized church service started at 10am and by the time we all got to church it was 11am. 1 hour late. The place was packed already. I'm still not that used to the church service here. It's so different compared to the ones I usually attend. Speaking in tongues, long worship times and well, the entire service's different. Service ended at about 5pm. 7 hours of service. WOW! I am so gonna need to get used to it. I like the service, just that it needs getting used to. Oh the church's name is "Semarak Revival Center" for the curious ones.

Good thing they had refreshments and provided ...erm... lunch? Well lunch or tea (it was 5pm) but the last thing I ate before that was pancakes and kaya in the morning. Then the girls of the youth were having some ice-cream and coke float sales to raise funds for their concert. To be honest ice cream with Coke tastes a bit weird, not as nice as Root Beer with ice cream. I had my darling get me a float with half-scoop strawberry and half-scoop vanilla. I think I was the only one so 'picky' to choose half-scoops of this and that.

Anyway, while waiting for my darling and her friends to finish selling the floats I listened to some voice recordings on my phone that she left me. There were 3 recordings. First one was really sweet. Hehe. She sounded soooooo cute and so.... kiddy... lol... I loved it. Maybe I'll find a way to post it up here if I can. :P 2nd and 3rd recordings, well, I'm not gonna elaborate on those two, I'm just gonna say that I didn't realize I snored so loud while sleeping........ PAHAHAHAHAHAHHA! Hey, my darling's not all sweet, she can be evil sometimes. :P

Went home after her parents came to pick us up from church. Julz wanted me to stay longer, and wanted me to go home after dinner. I was kinda tired and wanted to go home then. So I went home. Kinda felt bad after that, felt like I should've stayed longer with her. But I didn't wanna go home too late, cuz I've been going home late a number of times already, and I was tired. The worship kinda knocked me out. Slept on the KTM back to Sentral, and yet again, I nearly missed my station. *shrugs*

Well was kinda thinking a bit just now while lying on the bed after taking my shower. Recently there's been quite a lil tension between us, though most of them just end up being a misunderstanding. I guess one problem with me is that I forget things easily. I don't have a good memory, unlike most people. I mean, I REALLY dont have a good memory. And then so happens the other time I forgot that next week's her concert week, and I made plans with my other friends. She got mad, or frustrated, I don't really know. After realizing my mistake I cancelled my plans with my other friends, but she was still being moody and all. I then got really irritated too, at the fact that she didn't wanna tell me whats wrong or whats on her mind, and at the fact that I apologised and tried to make things right but she kept on being moody. We sorta got into a silent argument after that. Sigh. Me getting irritated and frustrated didn't help things much. I knew I was wrong in being irritated and all, and after some talk things got straightened out. But I was really scared during that time, scared that I would just blurt something out, something that would make things worse, etc, scared that I would lose her then. I guess I was selfish, cuz I didn't understand why she didn't wanna share things with me that time, didn't wanna tell me whats on her mind. Is it true that somethings are just hard to say, sometimes too many thoughts cloud the mind and makes it hard to translate thoughts into words? I can't say it's not true, cuz it happened to me before, and that was what was going on with her. Guess I shouldn't have pushed her to say things that she can't. I promised to her, and to myself, that I won't.
 
Then there are a few minor issues, like sometimes she feels like I'm obliged or forced to do things with her. Tomorow we'll be going over to her college to get some stuff, and we were talking about the plans on how to get there since there was an obvious transportation and cost problem. Yea maybe I sounded reluctant in going, cuz I was just gonna follow her there to get stuff then come back. But that's just me. Sometimes I can get sarcastic without myself knowing it, and it will sound like I'm serious. Thats another problem with me I guess. =/ But I wasn't reluctant at all in going. I wanted to spend more time with her, cuz we didn't really spend much time together during the weekend, not as much as I expected. Maybe I haven't made her secure enough, maybe I haven't convinced her that I would do ANYTHING for her, even if it means accompanying her to her college and having lunch together and then coming back home. I hope one day she'll be convinced of that. Till then, I'll be trying and giving my all to accomplish that.

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I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
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It's 3am and I gotta wake up at 9am later. Long day too :)
Goodnight world. Sweet dreams my love.