-= Listening to: Teresa Teng - Wo Zhi Zai Hu Ni

Sorry for the late update. Kinda got carried away with laziness the past um, 4 days? But hey, its just after my Winter 2004 finals, so my laziness is justified :P

First day of finals, Tuesday by the way, was hell! Math 2B (Linear Algebra) Final was at 9.15am followed by Physics 4A Final at 1.15pm. Two really difficult subjects in one day, and on the first day in the week of exams. Sheeeshhh. I've never been so stressed during an exam day before. Never had I had two difficult exams in one day, usually it's all spread out in the entire week of finals. But then again, having it all on the first day is good in a way that it's all over sooner and you don't have to get all worked out throughout the entire week. That was the case for me. My last exam was the next day at 9.15am - CIS 27 (Programming in C++ for C programmers).

Well anyway, about the finals, Math 2B final was extremely difficult. 50 linear algebra questions in 2 hours. Instructor gave us a list of what to study for the final and it was still difficult, imagine that. Well as much as I want to blame my bad result in this class on the fact that the instructor is the most difficult Math instructor in my college, I think it's me that should be blamed. Didn't really study much for my Math class, Physics got most of my attention throughout the entire quarter. Good thing I never will have to take any more Math classes.

Physics final, amazingly, was pretty easy for me, not sure about how the other students found it. I could do most of the questions except for one, which I did partly and didn't know how to find a substitution for the final angular acceleration of the object in question. But anyway, I was extremely pleased with myself at the end of the final. Satisfied with how I did, and party joyful cuz my finals were pretty much over. The c++ final next day should be easy I thought, and it was.

One thing I learnt, which, amazingly, and you could say that I was stubborn all these while not to realize it, was that studying pays off, huge. I didn't really expect to do my Physics exam with such ease, but I did cuz I studied like hell throughout the entire weekend. *sigh* Sometimes you know that to acheive something you gotta work hard for it, and believe that you can do it, but then again its not easy, and you just ignore that. Happened to me a lot of times, many times. Those times when I told myself I would study hard, the intention never really materialized, even though I try to, somethings just hold me back, or its either I hold myself back. Who else can I blame but myself anyway? Ah... complicated. Oh wellz.

Yay! Only after my last exam did I realize that there's gonna be a Spring break, and that's 1 week holiday!! Last year there was no Spring break holiday, and Spring quarter started right after Winter quarter ended. This year its good cuz the week of hols start tomorow! Though come to think of it I'm gonna be pretty bored throughout the entire week, with so much spare time. I plan to work on a new layout for my page, and add a few more links and pages, nothing fancy. Well at least that's something that'll prevent me from rotting throughout the entire week. Usually I'd be working on some aircraft models, but don't really have the mood to do that anymore. It's an expensive hobby too.

I was thinking maybe I take a train or bus down to San Francisco one of this days during the holiday, and go around there. It's damn embarrassing and stupid that I've been in California, and 1 hour drive away from SF, and I haven't BEEN to SF!!!! Gonna go around there, check out the bay, shops, but then again I dont think I'll be able to do much since I'll be going on my own without a car. I have a driving license here in Cali (which is expired by the way because of, well, unsurprisingly, laziness to renew) but I don't have a car. If only cars came together with the driving license as a package deal.

Still waiting for answers from UCLA, UCBerkeley and UC San Diego about my application status. I'm not expecting to be admitted into any of them. I might get into Berkeley, but UCLA and UC San Diego I most likely won't cuz I won't be able to finish my Physics series of classes before transferring. Even if I do get accepted into LA and SD, I won't go there if I had a choice cuz they only offer Bachelor of Sceince in Computer Science, and the courses there require more Sceince, and I'm not really comfortable with that. UCBerkeley and UC Santa Cruz are the only two that offer Bachelor of Arts in Computer Science, which, don't require any Physics/Bio/Chemistry subjects to be taken. Yea, blame me for taking the easy way out =p

Oh, and I have to go book my air ticket for a flight back to Malaysia soon. 3 more months and I'll be flying already. Parents said better book early just in case can't get a flight back. After all its summer, and flights might be full. Can't wait to get back to KL though. Can't wait to see my dearest love. *sigh* I miss her so much. Just talked to her about 30 mins ago on the phone and I'm already missing her a lot. uWaAA!! Can't wait!

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Thinking of last night just ticks me off. So my roommates and some friends were talking outside in the living room about one of them going after a girl, and they were offering advice and all that. I went out to get some water from the kitchen, and then they ask me to join lar. Yea, so I did. I just sat there and listened, they were this roommate of mine was like telling this other guy how to go for a girl, etc etc. He was like stressing on the point that the guy should just go for it, and make sure he gets the girl to make out with him. I was like thinking in my head, wtf, its that easy? Then my roommate started saying that the guy should get the girl to bed and fuck her, and that if he doesn't get the girl to do that in like one or two months, then he's a failure. The letters 'wtf' streaked across my mind again. So the guy said "Thats what animals do only, and we're not animals." I started feeling a bit better. Then my roommate replied, saying that "Nola, we're guys wat. We're all men and men are like that. Don't tell me you're not a guy. ". I just blurted out "Not all men are like that. Only animals are like that. Only YOU are like that. " and I just left the conversation and went back to my room. Maybe it's just me but I got so pissed off at the fact that some people treat relationships/love as a game and girls as toys. I get so pissed off that my roommate thinks that getting into a relationship is so easy. Well he has a girlfriend. Yea, and they argue and fight like everyday. Sometimes I just pity his gf, being shouted at by him all the time. I get so pissed at the fact that he thinks sex is everything. I get extremely mad at the fact that he thinks being a virgin is a bad thing, and that he's so proud that he lost his virginity at 18. People who take for granted relationships, people who are players, and people who totally destroy the institution of love/relationships and what it means to be in one, are people who totally tick me off.

Just pisses me off thinking about it.

Hmmmmph.

My low-carb food just arrived through the mail. Yea, food as in, nutrition-bars thingy. I'm not really on a diet, just trying out the low-carb diet of eating, which some people say its better and makes you more energetic etc etc due to a lot more protein intake, < 20mgs of carbs, no sugar, more fat. Hope it works out :)

Gonna go work on a new site layout. Only thought of the background. *tee hee*

*logs off*